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Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 2, 2013, at 21:26:55
so anyways, someone told me to do something that I can't tell on babble, but this person, I smile with all the time, but now its just I have to hide all my feelings and wear a mask and under it is hate, a lot of hate. But hate usally should be eventually let go of, not just sit around and think about how much you hate someone, it drives me crazy.... but seriously I can't let it go....its like a seed that got planted inside after being violated, having to have an smile on my face with a slight hateful look trying to cover it up.
I don't know how to handle this, its not just this....its like all the danm I have to hide my feelings becase people like to press my buttons and do it for a game, and then I have to get an evil persona under a smile. I just hate it, I should be able to handle all this, and not hide every danm thing im thinking....no one understands either so I have to deal with this on my own.....
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Posted by Zyprexa on June 3, 2013, at 20:14:44
In reply to masks, posted by rjlockhart37 on June 2, 2013, at 21:26:55
The problem is no one cares.
Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 4, 2013, at 11:47:44
In reply to Re: masks, posted by Zyprexa on June 3, 2013, at 20:14:44
exactly.....and then that drive to solve this sh*t on my own....
Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 4, 2013, at 11:58:59
In reply to Re: masks, posted by rjlockhart37 on June 4, 2013, at 11:47:44
I've realized its useless to post my thoughts here....all people do is look at it, and then move to the next posts.....its a waste of time....need to find somewhere else....seriously its useless, to post this stuff....all the stuff on the psychology board...useless....goes into the wind
Posted by damnthislife on June 4, 2013, at 13:11:40
In reply to masks, posted by rjlockhart37 on June 2, 2013, at 21:26:55
I can relate in a way...
My entire life and how I present myself to people is a facade. I try my hardest to show people what they want to see, as mask, so to say. Never show them how I really feel or how my thought process really is. It's difficult, but after time it becomes easier. No one will ever truly understand how you fell. How can they? They're not you!
People are cruel and enjoy watching others sink into misery and I have come to find that it is because they too are in face miserable in life.
Posted by damnthislife on June 4, 2013, at 13:16:49
In reply to Re: masks, posted by rjlockhart37 on June 4, 2013, at 11:58:59
Try to understand... we are all here looking for help. That one person that can fill us with hope that we're not alone, that this dispair is not something we have to deal with forever. You look for advice and help like we all do, however most of us can offer nothing more than a "e-hug" and hope you feel better. It's like the blind leading the blind. With depression comes lack of modivation and with lack of modivation comes "I really don't feel like helping this person when I cannot even help myself"
I too wish I got more responses than I do to my posts but I keep pushing through if not. If only everyone with depression reached out through 1 forum, not hundreds. There is so many out there suffering and there so many that have found answers yet no way of letting us know or simply don't care to.
Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 5, 2013, at 23:20:36
In reply to Re: masks, posted by damnthislife on June 4, 2013, at 13:16:49
I encourage if ever someone tells me im feeling sorry and overfocused on myself...."I really don't feel like helping this person when I cannot even help myself" some people are blinded and use generalizations and only look at 1% of the outside book. I'm am so serious.....
but past few weeks I've been writing boo hoo notes, psychoanalysis on myself and now it embarrassing to read or even realize I posted it....get real sentimental feeling and feel like I should throw all of my thoughts onto a forum thinking the ideal person will save me. It's a delusion....not too many people care....really....if had a funeral, not too many people would come....and that is not a self pity thing ... that is exactly what im trying to convey about limited connections, not too many people care in my life expect for my parents and few friends.....
so mask it and master it, after time maybe it will work out itself, at least that's my optimistic thinking to the max lol
thanks for posting
Posted by Zyprexa on June 11, 2013, at 7:55:13
In reply to Re: masks, posted by Zyprexa on June 3, 2013, at 20:14:44
what I meant is you have to put on a mask to show you are normal and happy, when inside you are hurt and no one cares.
I hope you didn't take that the wrong way.
Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 13, 2013, at 9:11:47
In reply to Re: masks, posted by Zyprexa on June 11, 2013, at 7:55:13
its ok...thanks for telling me:)
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