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Posted by zonked on March 3, 2013, at 21:53:29
If there's one place I feel safe to rant, it's here...
(Incidentally there are other boards that I don't participate in with similar topics - habit, but I am not crazy and I don't think it's funny even as self deprecating humor. Also, some of the moderators are
rather ... brutal. anyway.)So, yeah. I see my new primary care doctor this week, who ostensibly is going to refer me to a psychiatrist. Great.
But without my Dexedrine, in a new city, with so much to accomplish, I can't focus on a single damned thing. Which feeds my anxiety, which ultimately makes me feel paralyzed and depressed.
I'm afraid if the MAOI (Nardil) + stimulant combo won't be prescribed by the primary, even with my chart from where I lived before noting that's what I've been on forever and ever, and my little proof notes that this, in fact, is common in TRD and safe; I am going to blow my top.
My anxiety's so bad right now Xanax isn't doing very much... I literally walked to the corner, and didn't know what to do. Do I work on my resume? Do I try to make friends? Do I log in to the insurance plan's website and start making a list? What's most important?
Dexedrine gives me the ability to serialize, prioritize, and accomplish things. I can't do it with caffeine, I can't do it with anything I can obtain over the counter.
I am not a violent person, but 3 months without Dexedrine and I get sick of spending 85% of my energy *trying* to stay on task and focus on one thing at a time, and exhausting myself, beating myself up etc in the process... and sometimes, I feel so frustrated I want to punch the wall. (I haven't.)
Not to mention, that, without it, Nardil only takes me up to dysthymia-level. Not major depressive but life doesn't seem so snazzy either...
I'll keep fighting the fight. I truly, truly wish this drug was not CII and refills were allowed...
my previous psychiatrist has, unfortunately, refused to mail me a paper RX because he is no longer following me and I am in another state now.-z
Posted by Phillipa on March 3, 2013, at 22:58:24
In reply to Untreated ADD driving me mad., posted by zonked on March 3, 2013, at 21:53:29
I guess all I can do is wish you the very best of luck with this doctor and hope he refers you to a psychiatrist that will allow you to continue on present combo. I'd say try and relax but I understand it's not possible with so much on your mind. Phillipa
Posted by jono_in_adelaide on March 3, 2013, at 23:26:27
In reply to Untreated ADD driving me mad., posted by zonked on March 3, 2013, at 21:53:29
Can you fly back to se your old shrink one last time, and get one last script
Posted by zonked on March 4, 2013, at 1:12:55
In reply to Re: Untreated ADD driving me mad., posted by jono_in_adelaide on March 3, 2013, at 23:26:27
> Can you fly back to se your old shrink one last time, and get one last script
Nope. I have a Washington-only plan now (I am sure emergencies are allowed for outside the plan's home area, in fact, I know there is limited coverage at both US borders too), and the reasoning would be the same - he wouldn't be able to follow me, so for ethical reasons alone he can't prescribe it.
After a nap, and my roommate (who is awesome) coming home, I'm in a much better mood.
:)
-z
Posted by alchemy on March 4, 2013, at 9:55:43
In reply to Re: Untreated ADD driving me mad. » jono_in_adelaide, posted by zonked on March 4, 2013, at 1:12:55
Sorry, i just had an Add question. I don't fit the textbook description, just the restlessness. When they ask if you have trouble concentrating, my trouble is that it becomes annoying and agitating if i do anything for very long. Time moves soo slow. But I don't know how much of it is from depression. Nothing is interesting. As you can imagine, sitting at a desk or school is difficult. But I also don't have the motivation or interest to web surf or anything. And sometimes thinking feels like it hurts my brain.
Stimulants help, but then they make my mood cycle more, depessing crashes, starts to only work for an hour if that.
Anyway...what's you opinion on what's going on with me? It ruined most of my day because I couldn't even handle something for 20 minutes.
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