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Posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
I'm back and I still feel like sh*t. The only good thing about being at the centre is that there was always someone to talk to when I felt like sh*t, which was most of the time. You can only stay one week which is why I am back. It was stressful because I had to deal with my mum's problems from afar.
I got a job. Just a retail job, but it's a job. It's actually at my favourite store, so that's good I guess. I always thought that part of my depression was that I didn't have job. But now that I have a job, I don't feel any happier or better. I don't understand. It's all very confusing to me.
I am going to make an appt. with my pdoc to see if I can get on to Desipramine instead of the Nortriptaline.
I need hugs.
Posted by gardenergirl on August 17, 2010, at 20:46:55
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
Many hugs to you. I'm glad you went as opposed to not, and hurray for the job. It sounds like a good step. Woot woot!
gg
Posted by PartlyCloudy on August 17, 2010, at 20:52:12
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
((((Maxime))))
I'm glad you're safe. Maybe once the routine of the job sets in you'll get some satisfaction from that. Thinking of you,
pc
Posted by morgan miller on August 17, 2010, at 21:32:56
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
That's great you got a job at your favorite store! I think getting into the groove of working then feeling good about it is when you will feel the impact of having a job on your depression.
I have a feeling the causes of your depression run much deeper and are much greater than being unemployed. Sure being unemployed and feeling like you cannot hold down a job will make things worse, but it is simply a surface wound.
Hopefully you can get in to see a therapist you like soon. I know you don't have the money or insurance to cover it, but like others have suggested, you may be able to get free therapy/counseling through state and local services.
Good luck on your first day!
Morgan
Posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 22:13:37
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
I really feel like taking an OD and ending it all. I don't think my life is ever going to get any better. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy or content.
I'm tired. Mentally and physically.
Posted by morgan miller on August 17, 2010, at 22:43:23
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 22:13:37
Please try to be kind to yourself Maxime. You will get better, it's just going to take some time and a little hard work. I know I know, working hard at getting better is not easy when you are feeling so bad, that's why you will need a boost from medication.
Hang in there o.k.
Morgan
Posted by Phillipa on August 18, 2010, at 0:36:02
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by morgan miller on August 17, 2010, at 22:43:23
Maxie great that you're back. What's your favorite store sell? What will your duties be any idea? Will you do office work or sell retail? I don't think I'd think of changing meds yet just home give yourself some time to settle down. Do they also have any daycare for your Mum? Love Phillipa
Posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 5:49:50
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 22:13:37
> I really feel like taking an OD and ending it all. I don't think my life is ever going to get any better. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy or content.
>
> I'm tired. Mentally and physically.Me too.
- Scott
Posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 5:52:10
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
> I am going to make an appt. with my pdoc to see if I can get on to Desipramine instead of the Nortriptaline
This might be a good idea. I responded best to a combination of Parnate and desipramine many years ago.
- Scott
Posted by ed_uk2010 on August 18, 2010, at 17:00:21
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
>I got a job.
Hi Maxie,
Good news about the job. Having a job won't make you feel better straight away. Once you get into it.....get to know how things work, get to know the staff and customers, establish a role for yourself within the business.....that's when you'll start to feel better.
xx
Posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:16:24
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Phillipa on August 18, 2010, at 0:36:02
The store sells woman's clothing. Very flower child and fun! www.aprilcornell.com
Posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:18:17
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by morgan miller on August 17, 2010, at 22:43:23
Thank you. I am not even sure that I can stay at the job. It is costing me so much for gas and I only make minimum wage! I don't know what to do. My paychecks will be eaten up in no time with the amount of gas I have to use. It's 45 minutes each way.
Posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:21:36
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 5:49:50
> > I really feel like taking an OD and ending it all. I don't think my life is ever going to get any better. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy or content.
> >
> > I'm tired. Mentally and physically.
>
> Me too.
>
>
> - ScottI am very sorry to hear that Scott. What is your cocktail these days?
Posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:22:18
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre » Maxime, posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 5:52:10
> > I am going to make an appt. with my pdoc to see if I can get on to Desipramine instead of the Nortriptaline
>
> This might be a good idea. I responded best to a combination of Parnate and desipramine many years ago.
>
>
> - ScottWell, I think it's worth a try!
Posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:23:22
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by ed_uk2010 on August 18, 2010, at 17:00:21
> >I got a job.
>
> Hi Maxie,
>
> Good news about the job. Having a job won't make you feel better straight away. Once you get into it.....get to know how things work, get to know the staff and customers, establish a role for yourself within the business.....that's when you'll start to feel better.
>
> xxThanks Ed. You are right. I hope I will start to feel better soon.
Posted by Phillipa on August 18, 2010, at 20:06:04
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:23:22
Maxie thanks for the link. Love Phillipa
Posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 21:16:26
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre » SLS, posted by Maxime on August 18, 2010, at 19:21:36
> > > I really feel like taking an OD and ending it all. I don't think my life is ever going to get any better. It's like someone doesn't want me to be happy or content.
> > >
> > > I'm tired. Mentally and physically.
> >
> > Me too.
> >
> >
> > - Scott
>
> I am very sorry to hear that Scott. What is your cocktail these days?Nardil 90mg
nortriptyline 150mg
Lamictal 100mg
Abilify 10mg
lithium 600mgI recently increased my lithium dosage from 300mg to 600mg. I have never been on Nardil and lithium together, so I was optimistic at first. Not so much now. I should know within a week if the lithium increase helps.
- Scott
Posted by softheprairie on August 19, 2010, at 4:33:21
In reply to Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 17, 2010, at 19:36:25
I pray the desipramine is helpful to you!
Posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:28:39
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre » Maxime, posted by SLS on August 18, 2010, at 21:16:26
I hope the lithium increase helps you. How do you like Nardil compared to Parnate?
Posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:29:18
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre » Maxime, posted by softheprairie on August 19, 2010, at 4:33:21
Thank you. I hope my doctor agrees to it. :-)
Posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:35:14
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre » Maxime, posted by Phillipa on August 18, 2010, at 20:06:04
> Maxie thanks for the link. Love Phillipa
I'm not sure I can keep the job. I am spending too much on gas. It may not be worth it to keep the job. I will have to see ...
Posted by Phillipa on August 19, 2010, at 19:52:48
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:35:14
I understand gas is so horribly expensive now. Phillipa
Posted by Maxime on August 20, 2010, at 19:21:40
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:35:14
Someone.shoot.me please.
Posted by softheprairie on August 20, 2010, at 20:19:03
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:35:14
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> I'm not sure I can keep the job. I am spending too much on gas. It may not be worth it to keep the job. I will have to see ...
Can you see if the Vocational Rehabilitation services in your area will help you with gas money? It probably wouldn't be for long, but it's worth checking into, it seems to me. In my area (which I realize is not the same country you are in), V.R. has been known to help in that way.Of course, I will add that V.R. did not work out for me. I may try it again some time, though. I did feel sort of worse after the fact, like it just got my hopes up, and then dashed them. So, I guess there is a risk. (And, I'm sorry if I just did the same thing here.) *specially pronounced sore-ee for Canadians :)
Posted by morgan miller on August 20, 2010, at 21:24:45
In reply to Re: Back from Crisis Centre, posted by Maxime on August 19, 2010, at 19:35:14
Maxie, you have try to find a way to get free counseling and see if you can go two times a week.
Isn't the job going to pay for the gas money at least? I guess you will have to wait for the paychecks and may run out of money to pay for gas before you get them. I'm just thinking, even if you don't really make any money at this job, maybe it will still help you eventually.
Hope you feel better soon, hang in there.
Morgan
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