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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 1:31:55
Loggin...in
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avoidant_personality_disorder
Topic, but what i'm maybe going to discuss is getting a good health insurace, one that will, actaully "know" you.
I see doctor's just "jet down" ok....you have this, take this Seroquel, or whatever substance that's prescibed. Yet, my own belief, it's a psychiatrist who, can only go, throught facts, somethings they cannot understand
Collapse, of years, of happieness, but just one thing that bother me...
After that, it's not worth putting up.Feeling of it's self, the brain, the heart, is going to "fracture". There a barrier, and it can't keep taking hit's after it's damaged. I don't ever want to start losing track, but i do.
I pulled out some VHS, going through stuff, needed to cleaned, 10-15years old. Ran across a tape, it was BlockBuster take called "KidPrint", obvious...it's idenification on film. But i was 9, didnt know, but i just smiled, i started at that TV screen so long. And it was a buddy system, created just that year, where you can call someone, mentor, to actaully TELL and listen understanding of life.
"Trust Your Feelings"-I will trust my feelings and talk to adults about problems that are too big for me to handle on my own.
-If I believe something is wrong, I know and trust alot of people who care about me and will listen and believe me.
-I know it is never too late to get help, and i will coninue asking those I trust until i get the help I need, I am never alone.
Copyright 1987, 1996 Blockbuster Video, 1-800-843-5678
__________________________________________I look back and, wanted to hang around someone, who...was just an older person, that maybe out of their sake would, well....really alot of people come and go, so that's irrevent. And....as to my mother and stepfather, watch life go away themself, because they are filthy, and get "pleasure" of having control over BANK accounts, keys to the car, and at some points, that is what made....me hit the roof. And basically just subligual message, you not existing. Ket they hid, "vital" infomation. And refuse and can make up any story they could, to just cover their butt, not suprised, my credid card has swipes i didnt make.....but that's just part of it.
But, that's not the point, make no big deal of it. It's just i see "control" gives pleasure to people. And to live to their rules, moral or not.
Anyways,
Quantam Reality, can i go back? 99% sure no. If i did, i would get away from that woman when i got chance. But, i've heard this saying "go back" Start again.What Dreams May Come, knowing what you can have, the Joy, Happiness, serinity, but it all can go down. Yet, self-sustaning endurance, walking that line of faith. Dopamine plays a key part in survival, along with norepinephrine, because those nuerotransmitters are "survival" instinct. Motivation to survive and live, and know all of these former things, will pass away.
I am normal....but inside you have accept what's going on, and take it to higher circumstances to get it over, yet inflation ego doesnt work, your faking your own mirror. The mind slits or blocks it's damaged side, "Quarintined". And recovery has to take place.When someone is....well, are on the verge of mental death (from things fallin, collapsing). Would it be rather, just let the collapse happen? or postpone it?
Of course you know, that people find control and it gives them "pleasure" to have control. Even though this person is dying right in there eyes, it's a self-denied dictator. Sadly...that's how some Psychiatrists, well today, i think it's more just the job it's self, rather than personal help.
If they just heard what the hell was going on, at home with a beast. Some would sit back, pull out A BIG pack of beer, and dinner, "don't put your faith in someone else, no person can be there" It's God....who is there/here/ omnipresent, but...can't discuss that on a board. And the old Original Series or 90210, early season's. Because that was what i grew up seeing "relationships", working with people.-One error can multiply into multiple errors, and then it top'les itself. Have to undo every one.
Ignore all negative thoughts, for a while, so you can get what ever needs to be done, at that time, then talk it out, write it, cry it, or put everything on your mind on a sheet of paper, that way it's logged, and you can see connections with emotions.
And also....give or take
Closing your eyes, and just thinking of a place, you want to be, and people who love you, there. This releases endorphins, feeling love.
So, that's it.
rerember, there's is people, who have had worse. Suck it up. I taught myself this.
rj
Posted by Phillipa on March 15, 2009, at 10:59:05
In reply to I need to go back, restart., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 1:31:55
RJ no you can't go back but can have memories of the past. I feel you are sad right now. Looking for answers in life. Are you talking to a psychologist? They may be able to help you process your past. Love Phillipa
Posted by Zyprexa on March 15, 2009, at 14:05:09
In reply to I need to go back, restart., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 1:31:55
Why did you quit taking all your meds?
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 18:19:38
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart. » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Zyprexa on March 15, 2009, at 14:05:09
At that time, didnt feel i needed. I hate it, when i just write....and then the next day, "oh gosh" i posted this. But, it had to ventilate. Alot people dont understand. Thanks for askin'
What's your point?
Posted by Zyprexa on March 16, 2009, at 13:38:15
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 18:19:38
I just wonder if maybe you need them. Did you talk it over with your doctor? What I'm saying is when I went off my meds I would get all these ideas and start writing. When I went back on my meds and years later I would look at what I wrote and not even understand it.
Posted by Maxime on March 16, 2009, at 21:04:34
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart. » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Zyprexa on March 16, 2009, at 13:38:15
> I just wonder if maybe you need them. Did you talk it over with your doctor? What I'm saying is when I went off my meds I would get all these ideas and start writing. When I went back on my meds and years later I would look at what I wrote and not even understand it.
I did the same thing when I was manic. I would even start writing on the walls. Interesting.
Posted by Neal on March 16, 2009, at 21:36:21
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart. » Zyprexa, posted by Maxime on March 16, 2009, at 21:04:34
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What I got from the original post was a sort of embracing of the idea that cognitive therapy teaches.
It can work for some. Some need to take meds in addition to it.
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Posted by Zyprexa on March 17, 2009, at 20:54:49
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart. » Zyprexa, posted by Maxime on March 16, 2009, at 21:04:34
Interesting. I didn't write on the walls, but had diaries of endless gobledeegoop. I did punch a hole in the wall when I first got sick. Don't remember why. Just that I was having an argument and feeling frustrated, talking to my dad.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 21, 2009, at 19:54:51
In reply to Re: I need to go back, restart., posted by Neal on March 16, 2009, at 21:36:21
Also, i write....you know to the lord, and at night, i've written "tons", well not "tons" but alot, writing that was indepth, and a wake up, i knew i wrote it, but i could not believe how "indepth" i would write about reality. Scary, but then i think about it, and i just rerember, there was nothin else to do, that's why i wrote so many pages.
Also, i have found journals from 2002-now. Not including some of my hidious writings in the past (2004) on Psychobabble!. Gosh, i just want say "why the hell...did you write this?" but back then i wasnt fully aware of everything, and one aspect that it got published (catched) on google!
AAHHH dr-bob!
So, i can read alot of my past, but some of current stuff, does not relate to 2002-2005. Because life basically "fliped". I had to start again....
ugh....well i do know it would take some undurance to do this, start over, start over.
best wishes, hope noone will have to go through the "turmoil" me-myself made, and also the circumstance, control, manipulation.
But, the mind adapts, and it becomes aware of it's capabilities. And on a personal note, i gave my life to the Lord.
take care...
rj
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