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Posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
Slept 7 1/2 hours last night, had a normal dream before wakening, and woke up feeling .... NORMAL.
No euphoria, just normal. I thought, this is how I used to feel on waking up, many many years ago, before depresson took over. Nothing I can really put my finger on, but at the same time, totally different - JUST NORMAL. It must be an absence of depression. It is really weird. Nothing is really different, yet it REALLY IS DIFFERENT. Like a veil has been lifted, or someone has turned the main power circuit breaker back on after being on emergency power, or someone has plugged in a loose cable.
I do not sleep 7 1/2 hours (usually 5-6). I do not dream normally. I do not wake up feeling normal. I have suffered dysthymic depression for over 10 years, with bouts of major (double) depression.
I am not on any antidepressant since stopping Tianepine 4 weeks ago, which I only took for 4 weeks and did not help me. During last two weeks I have suffered the worst bout of depression in my life. Is this some sort of rebound? I am not bipolar. This is not mania, just normal.
If I was on a new antidepressant I would be feeling really great right now, thinking I might have found one that really works. Instead I am a bit frightened. I'm even thinking I may need to get a brain scan. You just don't wake up from 10 years of depression for no reason!
My logical brain says I am just having a rare good day and making a big thing about nothing. This is probably true. In fact 99% likely, but my experience this morning is VERY REAL, and I thought it worth reporting.
I know it is ridiculous to talk about remission from long term depression just because I wake up one morning feeling better. But believe me, to wake up feeling normal, is for me, just SO DIFFERENT, I feel anything is possible. Maybe I'm in remission. Maybe I have a brain tumour. Maybe I'm cured. Yeah, pigs might fly ...
My best guess as to what is going on is that it is some sort of temporary rebound effect brought on by a severe bout of major depression. Maybe when a major depression has run its course there is sometimes a blip where the brain rebounds from double depression, overshoots dysthymic depression, and allows one to feel normal for a short time, before settling back into dysthymia. Does this make sense?
Anyone got any inkling as to what might be going on?
Trotter
Posted by seldomseen on November 24, 2008, at 16:01:27
In reply to Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
I say just enjoy it. It is rare to wake up feeling normal.
I hope it lasts!
Seldom.
Posted by Phillipa on November 24, 2008, at 17:34:19
In reply to Re: Spontaneous Remission?, posted by seldomseen on November 24, 2008, at 16:01:27
I feel it's possible and congrats on that. Maybe major depression has run it's course? Dysthymia gone too? So Happy for you. And I believe it will last. Do you think the ad was adding to the depression and now it's washed out of your body? Just a thought. Phillipa
Posted by JadeKelly on November 24, 2008, at 19:31:35
In reply to Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
Trotter,
Please write down everything you've had to eat, drink, what you wore, where you went, what time to bed, what time up, etc. over the last 2 weeks. If you took 2 Advil, we want to know about it, hah!
I think the Tianepine turned your braker switch back on! Congrats on feelin good! Enjoy!!
~Jade
Posted by ricker on November 24, 2008, at 20:13:56
In reply to Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
Ya, unfortunately you'll never know why? If someone could give you a valid reason, they could also provide a "cure" for depression! Enjoy the ride!!!
Regards, Rick
Posted by B2chica on November 25, 2008, at 8:53:29
In reply to Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
definitely just enjoy it. we never know how long gifts like this will last.
don't spend this time looking for answers. go out, do things you've wanted to get done.
enjoy yourself. if it lasts over a month, then you can dig into what it was if you want.until then...Congrats!
and best wishes
b2c.
Posted by Trotter on November 28, 2008, at 13:25:45
In reply to Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 24, 2008, at 15:17:10
Thought I should follow up on my original post in case anyone is wondering what the outcome is.
Not in remission, but not in major depression either. I think I experienced some sort of bounce effect after a severe bout of depression. Who knows what's going on? Anyway, my mood seems to be more or less back where it was before my Tianeptine disaster, for that I am grateful.
Trotter
Posted by JadeKelly on November 28, 2008, at 16:15:38
In reply to Re: Spontaneous Remission?, posted by Trotter on November 28, 2008, at 13:25:45
> Thought I should follow up on my original post in case anyone is wondering what the outcome is.
>
> Not in remission, but not in major depression either. I think I experienced some sort of bounce effect after a severe bout of depression. Who knows what's going on? Anyway, my mood seems to be more or less back where it was before my Tianeptine disaster, for that I am grateful.
>
> TrotterSorry to hear it wasn't full remission, but hey, we'll take what we can get right? And keep going till we have every piece of the puzzle. Hope thats soon (for both of us!)
~Jade
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