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Posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 21:47:23
It's too painful to see my friends start to treat me differently now that I've told them about my depression. Apparently I'm not worth talking to anymore. I feel like my heart has been ripped out and am in excruciating pain. Just seems like things are not eveer going to be better for me.
I can't hold on.....Lord knows I've tried for 15 years and my grip is slipping.
Who knows where I'll end up....but anything has got to be better than this emptiness.
Thank you all for being there for me.
Posted by Phillipa on May 23, 2007, at 21:57:33
In reply to I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 21:47:23
Jerry okay now it's time for the hospital and call 911 you need to get help now. Love Phillipa
Posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:12:23
In reply to I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 21:47:23
Jerry, the people here have been where you are, no one else really gets what depression does to you...are you still wanting to talk to us here or do you think you are in danger of hurting yourself? If so, you have to take Phillipa's advice and get some outside help. Sometimes the situation is bigger than we can handle on our own. It will be OK to admit you need help from others, that's why we come here, to help when we can or if we can't, you have to rely on the medical personnel to intervene then.
Stargazer2
Posted by Phillipa on May 23, 2007, at 22:21:06
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:12:23
Posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 22:29:08
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:12:23
> Jerry, the people here have been where you are, no one else really gets what depression does to you...are you still wanting to talk to us here or do you think you are in danger of hurting yourself? If so, you have to take Phillipa's advice and get some outside help. Sometimes the situation is bigger than we can handle on our own. It will be OK to admit you need help from others, that's why we come here, to help when we can or if we can't, you have to rely on the medical personnel to intervene then.
>
> Stargazer2I'm not going to hurt myself tonight. I'm sorry for the worry.
Posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 22:30:20
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:12:23
I just want someone to listen and to care and to not leave me.......thats all I want.......that;s all I want.......
Posted by Phillipa on May 23, 2007, at 22:35:38
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 22:30:20
Jerry this is not a time to be alone you definitely need the support of a hospital enviornment at this time. Please call 9ll they will help you and you will not be alone. We're all here for you. Love Jan
Posted by sleepygirl on May 23, 2007, at 22:51:37
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 22:30:20
I care and I will listen
sorry it feels so bad right now
-sg
Posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:53:29
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon » stargazer2, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 22:29:08
Good, glad to hear it. Your posts remeind me so much of mine on and off over the past few yaers. I get right to the edge but then know I have to keep trying even though I'm sick and tired of it all. Hang in there Jerry, you will get lots of support here on PB since most have been where you are tonight.
I'm not able to stay up much longer but if you want to talk a little while longer we can do that..I'm sure there's some other night owls here that can take over when I start to fade...
Posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 23:22:18
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon/Jerry, posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 22:53:29
Posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2007, at 9:28:15
In reply to Good night Jerry,, not much use 2night...B good.. (nm), posted by stargazer2 on May 23, 2007, at 23:22:18
Posted by Squiggles on May 24, 2007, at 9:55:57
In reply to I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 21:47:23
You definitely sound depressed. If you are
too shy to call 911, talk to a friend or
go to the Emergency or a near-by clinic by taxi, and explain that you are
in emotional distress. Your circumstances
will be more tolerable if you are treated.Good luck.
Squiggles
Posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2007, at 10:08:42
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by Squiggles on May 24, 2007, at 9:55:57
Just found this webpage with all kinds of info for someone who is suicidal including 800 #'s and email help even. Thank God for google.
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html
I'msure they will counsel you and adsie you to call 911 if indicated.
SG2
Posted by Phillipa on May 24, 2007, at 11:13:56
In reply to National Suicide Hotline, 1-800-suicide, posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2007, at 10:08:42
Hi Jerry are are you today? Are you feeling any better? As you can see a lot of your babble buddies care about you. I know it's hard as I am having trouble doing things too. Love Phillipa
Posted by kaleidoscope on May 24, 2007, at 14:46:32
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon » JerryPharmStudent, posted by Phillipa on May 23, 2007, at 21:57:33
Jerry it's Ed, do you want to talk on MSN? There's a big difference RE time zones but if you babblemail me and tell me when you're around we should be able to chat.
Ed
Posted by Abby Cunningham on May 24, 2007, at 15:37:20
In reply to I'm leaving soon, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 23, 2007, at 21:47:23
Jerry,
I care also and I hope you get help......remember what you are thinking of is permanent. you WILL feel better. God loves you! Please call the hotline or your clergy if you have one....I am praying for you.
Abby
Posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2007, at 17:25:18
In reply to Re: I'm leaving soon, posted by Abby Cunningham on May 24, 2007, at 15:37:20
Posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 25, 2007, at 1:49:43
In reply to Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK? (nm), posted by stargazer2 on May 24, 2007, at 17:25:18
I'm here. Things are jsut so tough for me....I feel like I'm being so selfish asking for support when so many of you are going through the same kinds of things.
thank you all tho
Posted by Paulbwell on May 25, 2007, at 2:07:33
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 25, 2007, at 1:49:43
> I'm here. Things are jsut so tough for me....I feel like I'm being so selfish asking for support when so many of you are going through the same kinds of things.
>
> thank you all thoYOU FELL SELFISH?-try going through Alcohol detox-UNDERMEDICATED-(Fuckin Docs)even 100mgs Valium, you would rather die or go insane.
Demon alcohol-Life or death.
Posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 25, 2007, at 2:44:44
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by Paulbwell on May 25, 2007, at 2:07:33
> > I'm here. Things are jsut so tough for me....I feel like I'm being so selfish asking for support when so many of you are going through the same kinds of things.
> >
> > thank you all tho
>
> YOU FELL SELFISH?-try going through Alcohol detox-UNDERMEDICATED-(Fuckin Docs)even 100mgs Valium, you would rather die or go insane.
>
> Demon alcohol-Life or death.
>
>
sorry Paul.
Posted by Jedi on May 25, 2007, at 3:38:07
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK? » Paulbwell, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 25, 2007, at 2:44:44
Jerry,
Just remember that for most of us it does not last forever. I've been where you are about three times but Nardil pulled me out. I haven't read enough of the threads to give you any advice on meds but there is usually something that works or ECT. If you're not seeing a P-DOC crawl into a clinic and tell them you need help. Sometimes just getting away from the everyday hassles helps.
Get Well,
Jedi
Posted by stargazer2 on May 25, 2007, at 4:28:31
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by JerryPharmStudent on May 25, 2007, at 1:49:43
Jerry, thanks for checking in, that's so important when you are feeling so badly to let those who may worry about you, know you are OK. I was worried when there was no message for awhile with not knowing made me think the worse.
Depression can go up and down hourly and I'm glad you were able to ride the waves and keep afloat.
It will get better once you find something that can help, whether its AD's or just talking with others, going through or having gone through the same thing. We're here for you.I just got through a really bad period myself, down for over a year, unemployed and getting pretty desparate but now seeing some relief. I did do a few things for myself out of desparation. One, I told my doctor of 17 years I would not waste any more time since I just turned 50 and have seen more than half of my life wasted on this disease. Two, I sought out a research specialist and have him as a backup should I need really unconventional treatments such as Riluzole and Ketamine, which have shown some promise for really resistant cases.
Babble mail me anytime (going away this w/e) if you need more info on this treatment since I think you have tried just about everything else, right?
hang in...we're here most days helping out or getting help ourselves...It's a constant with depression...ongoing support and treatment.
Stargazer2
Posted by stargazer2 on May 25, 2007, at 4:43:03
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by Paulbwell on May 25, 2007, at 2:07:33
Paul, I just wrote my message and it dissappeared...lets try again...
You have made the most difficult decision you could to go through the treatment and now the hard part is upon you.
Hang in there, it will get better and then you will have a whole new chance to get your life together. That can be the goal you can focus on to get you through this horrible time you are in. It will get easier but always gets harder first, to prove it will all be worth it. That's just how life is, the hardest things are the ones most worthwhile...
Keep a journal just to show yourself what you had to go through to get to the other side. It will be a reminder to never to go down that road again...Memory is always short sighted when it comes to really painful things like you are going through right now.
SG2
Posted by stargazer2 on May 25, 2007, at 6:38:49
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by stargazer2 on May 25, 2007, at 4:43:03
Posted by Paulbwell on May 25, 2007, at 11:22:41
In reply to Re: Jerry, can you check in and let us know you're OK?, posted by stargazer2 on May 25, 2007, at 4:43:03
> Paul, I just wrote my message and it dissappeared...lets try again...
>
> You have made the most difficult decision you could to go through the treatment and now the hard part is upon you.
>
> Hang in there, it will get better and then you will have a whole new chance to get your life together. That can be the goal you can focus on to get you through this horrible time you are in. It will get easier but always gets harder first, to prove it will all be worth it. That's just how life is, the hardest things are the ones most worthwhile...
>
> Keep a journal just to show yourself what you had to go through to get to the other side. It will be a reminder to never to go down that road again...Memory is always short sighted when it comes to really painful things like you are going through right now.
>
> SG2
God bless you!!!-and may the good shine upon you!.Alcohol bought me down to the floor, and while in detox the first few days, i wanted to be dead or insane, anything to remove the torment.
I was given 100mgs valium (what a joke to a benzo tolerant person) and was calling my folks begging them to bring in my Risperdal, Xanax, to starve off the torment-they refused-and i let them know !!!!
I had never been more insane in my life, and i was in a medical facility, what a joke! i was grabbing at the med cabinet for the 10mg Valium bottles, and had to be restrained.
NEVER again-kill me first.
Again i thank you and God bless:)
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