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Posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:04:55
First off, I want to say that this isn't a suicide threat. I have no plans to kill myself because I'm not very good at it.
But I am in such mental turmoil. I can't stand it. The Mirapex isn't helping yet. I have no hope. There is nothing left to try. I wish I could get deep brain stimulation done. I truly believe that it's the only thing that will help me.
Maxime
Posted by Squiggles on March 15, 2006, at 14:09:50
Wouldn't going to ER or calling your
dr. be a better option?Here I am struggling with my "heart
attack" like symptoms to adjust with
the optimism that i *will* eventually,
and i have to read this. Ughh - not
good for anyone - call your dr.
and say what you said here. He or
she is more able to help and recommend
the treatment you suggest or something
else.Squiggles
Posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:32:52
In reply to Suicidal and no options, posted by Squiggles on March 15, 2006, at 14:09:50
No way! I spent two months in the hospital because of him! I am not going back there and that is the only thing I think he will suggest.
Maxime
> Wouldn't going to ER or calling your
> dr. be a better option?
>
> Here I am struggling with my "heart
> attack" like symptoms to adjust with
> the optimism that i *will* eventually,
> and i have to read this. Ughh - not
> good for anyone - call your dr.
> and say what you said here. He or
> she is more able to help and recommend
> the treatment you suggest or something
> else.
>
> Squiggles
Posted by Squiggles on March 15, 2006, at 15:04:12
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:32:52
deep brain stimulation - chacun a son gout.
Squiggles
Posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 15:08:55
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:32:52
On Friday I am TELLING my doctor that I am going back on Parnate. That means a 5 week wait for the Prozac to get out of my system. It's going to be rough, but not any worse than it is now. Actually, I don't care if I end up in the hospital while I wait. Okay, well I do care. But my point is that I am willing to do anything.
If someone said to me "I can take away your depression but in exchange I will need to take a limb" I would say yes."
Maxime
Posted by Squiggles on March 15, 2006, at 15:29:37
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 15:08:55
> On Friday I am TELLING my doctor that I am going back on Parnate. That means a 5 week wait for the Prozac to get out of my system. It's going to be rough, but not any worse than it is now. Actually, I don't care if I end up in the hospital while I wait. Okay, well I do care. But my point is that I am willing to do anything.
>
> If someone said to me "I can take away your depression but in exchange I will need to take a limb" I would say yes."
>
> Maxime
I hope your dr. is sympathetic. I have
not been following your posts, but from
this one you seem to know which drug you
prefer. Also, ending up in the hospital
is not such a bad thing, imho, if there
is a hospital to end up in. I don't know
where you live but in big cities, you
can switch drugs by the garbage cans in
the alley ways. Dr. Torrey knows all about
that.
Good luck with the switch.Squiggles
Posted by denise1966 on March 15, 2006, at 16:13:34
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:32:52
Maxime,
Just want to say I totally empathise with you, I often feel that I'd give up a limb just to be free from depression, then at least even without the limb you'd have the will to walk, with depression there is no will and so what good do limbs do you anyway.
Does the Parnate help you? If so why did you come off it?
Also, why don't you pursue the idea of Deep Brain Stimulation as a goal. Maybe you won't have it but can't you not at least talk to any of the people doing studies about it? It sounds promising to me.
Don't forget we're all on this rocky ship together and we all, feel at times, like jumping ship. I know I do.
Denise
Posted by MidnightBlue on March 15, 2006, at 16:35:55
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 15:08:55
Maxime,
Actually, I've felt like that. There were days I would have given anything to not be depressed. I haven't felt that way for a long time now though. It is SO GOOD to be able to say that!
You said you wouldn't mind going back to the hospital to wait to go back on Parnate. That might be a good idea. We will be here waiting for you when you get out. You did say this pdoc seems to really care about how you are doing.
:-)
MB
> On Friday I am TELLING my doctor that I am going back on Parnate. That means a 5 week wait for the Prozac to get out of my system. It's going to be rough, but not any worse than it is now. Actually, I don't care if I end up in the hospital while I wait. Okay, well I do care. But my point is that I am willing to do anything.
>
> If someone said to me "I can take away your depression but in exchange I will need to take a limb" I would say yes."
>
> Maxime
Posted by Sobriquet Style on March 15, 2006, at 18:35:56
In reply to Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:04:55
>deep brain stimulation done. I truly believe that it's the only thing that will help me.
Theres always options, its just the depression makes you believe there isn't. Look above, you even said one yourself
:-)
~
Posted by Phillipa on March 15, 2006, at 19:59:22
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options - Options you have.., posted by Sobriquet Style on March 15, 2006, at 18:35:56
Maxie this isn't the first time but it's the first time you have listened to a doctor and not yourself. Hummmm. Love Phillipa
Posted by Phillipa on March 15, 2006, at 20:03:06
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by MidnightBlue on March 15, 2006, at 16:35:55
Maxie do what your mind tells you to do you are a genius. Love Phillipa
Posted by detroitpistons on March 16, 2006, at 9:00:59
In reply to Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:04:55
I hate waiting for antidepressants to start working...Do you think there's any chance that you may get temporary relief from taking Klonopin or maybe even a stimulant while you wait for the AD to kick in? I've been thinking about this and I may ask my doctor about it next time I'm depressed and waiting for an AD to kick in.
If you're scared of being hospitalized, I would
maybe just downplay the true extent of your current condition a bit to the doctor to see if he will offer up anything besides the hospital...but that's just my opinion. It might not be the smartest thing to do.Wishing you relief,
Marc
> First off, I want to say that this isn't a suicide threat. I have no plans to kill myself because I'm not very good at it.
>
> But I am in such mental turmoil. I can't stand it. The Mirapex isn't helping yet. I have no hope. There is nothing left to try. I wish I could get deep brain stimulation done. I truly believe that it's the only thing that will help me.
>
> Maxime
Posted by mogger on March 16, 2006, at 12:38:24
In reply to Suicidal and no options, posted by Squiggles on March 15, 2006, at 14:09:50
Maxime,
have you tried 60MG (atleast 40mg) a day of Selegiline and 1000 mg of phenylalanine?
mogger
Posted by mogger on March 16, 2006, at 12:50:55
In reply to Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 14:04:55
It is a major stimulant and focus helper. So sorry you are struggling like this,
mogger
Posted by mogger on March 16, 2006, at 13:23:18
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by Maxime on March 15, 2006, at 15:08:55
just read your post about parnate and hopefully going back on it on friday. That sounds like a great idea, try to hang in there,
mogger
Posted by gardenergirl on March 16, 2006, at 14:43:28
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by mogger on March 16, 2006, at 13:23:18
I hope you're finding some relief.
gg
Posted by Maxime on March 16, 2006, at 16:12:20
In reply to Re: Suicidal and no options, posted by mogger on March 16, 2006, at 13:23:18
Thanks for your support everyone. I am still here and hanging in ... barely. I see my pdoc tomorrow. I didn't take my Prozac today.
I feel like this is all so pointless. That no matter what I do I will feel like sh*t.
Maxime
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