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Posted by RobertDavid on December 15, 2005, at 15:42:35
I need help. When I was younger I was a heavy drinker. I quit when I was about 25. I was basically self medicating my anxiety. I realized I was or had become an alcoholic. I quit for 18 years and then started to play with a drink here and there.
Now, about every 1 to 4 weeks I go out and get hammard, smashed. Each time I do that I swear it will be the last time, but I keep doing it. I never know when I'm going to go out and do it, it just happens. Like there is a 800 pound gorilla following me around that jumps on my back when he wants.
It happend again last night. I stayed out till the lights came on. I drove home drunk, don't remember much except a few things that I'm to embarassed to tell.
Then, at bedtime I take my 2mgs of klonopin. I know if I keep this up one day I won't wake up. But I keep doing it. As I sit here I swear that I'll never do it again, have sent out a few emails to friends asking for help.
I need the klonopin, it's the only thing that works for my anxiety, I must quit this crazy binging. I think it's just something I do because 1, I'm an alcoholic and 2, because it's gets rid of the pain (temporarily). Otherwise I don't know.
I become so social, fear nothing. But the depression that follows like now is overwhelming. And the things I do, God. I don't know how I'm going to get through this day. I'm in so much pain physically and emotionally.
Okay, I'm just thowing this out there, I don't know what else to do now. I'm really getting scared that I'll never stop till something real bad happens.....sigh
Posted by Phillipa on December 15, 2005, at 22:45:33
In reply to Quite worried: Alcohol Benzos Anxiety, posted by RobertDavid on December 15, 2005, at 15:42:35
Hi I think you need to take this to the substance board. I'm sure you will get a better response there. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by sleepygirl on December 15, 2005, at 23:10:34
In reply to Quite worried: Alcohol Benzos Anxiety, posted by RobertDavid on December 15, 2005, at 15:42:35
Well I must say you sound like you're in real trouble.
The drinking will do nothing for helping you get a handle on your anxiety, not to mention depression, and you don't want to do things that will make you feel badly about yourself either, or put you or other people in harm's way.You sound like you KNOW it is a problem
Do I even have to mention the klonopin issue with the alcohol? benzo + alcohol =bad news
When you know it can be bad news, but you do it, I wonder how depressed you might be to put yourself in such danger.I'm kind of scared for you Robert although I don't know you. It sounds like a cycle that can keep going and just get worse, and somewhere in there you have just been lucky, just luck.
OK, I know when you feel horrible it can make it easier to drink/drug yourself into oblivion, and let me say as well I have done things under the influence that make me shudder - total self-destructiveness. So I hope I don't come off as unempathetic to your struggle. I hope you can get a handle on this. Talk to a T, a pdoc, both, AA meeting? Please do. Please post again. You sound like you're in a dark place. Take good care of yourself OK?
Posted by lunesta on December 16, 2005, at 4:38:19
In reply to Quite worried: Alcohol Benzos Anxiety, posted by RobertDavid on December 15, 2005, at 15:42:35
There is a pill called Revia, or Campral, they will stop you from enjoying alcohol and you wont want it anymore. Revia also will block its effects directly for saftey. Your doctor can easily prescribe these.
Posted by RobertDavid on December 18, 2005, at 13:35:40
In reply to Re: Quite worried: Alcohol Benzos Anxiety » RobertDavid, posted by lunesta on December 16, 2005, at 4:38:19
I'm feeling much better now. Getting help. More optimistic. What a depressant alcohol is. I'm done with my monthly binge. My advise, stay away from benzo's and alcohol (other meds for that matter).
Posted by Dr. Bob on December 19, 2005, at 16:36:37
In reply to Re: Quite worried: Alcohol Benzos Anxiety, posted by RobertDavid on December 18, 2005, at 13:35:40
> What a depressant alcohol is...
To consolidate replies, I'd like to redirect this thread to Psycho-Babble Substance Use. Here's a link:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/subs/20051211/msgs/590302.html
Thanks,
Bob
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