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Posted by calamityjane on December 12, 2005, at 0:56:15
I used to post here a lot...I was always talking about stimulant meds, because that is my "thing".
I wish I had never felt the euphoria, the excitement of accomplishment, the rush, the intenseness of Ritalin & Adderall.
Because if I hadn't ever felt those then I would not have ever felt the craving, the yearning, the diminishment of my own self worth and abilities. I would never put off cleaning my house or doing work "till I get my pills".
I would never have forgotten to feed my daughter lunch just because my own hunger was invisible to me---and upon realizing she was hungry I would never have settled to give her peanut butter crackers just because they were quick and easy (so as not to interfere into my "cleaning time".)
Instead of playing games with me or learning activites with me my daughter has spent countless mornings, afternoons, evenings with a pillow and a blanket in front of the tv so I could occupy her long enough (so as not to interfere into my "study time"). She is all too familiar with the words "I'll be there in a minute" and "hold on" and "I'm too busy".
Without Adderall I wouldnt have begun to skip school to stay home in order to "study" in a "quieter environment". I also wouldn't have dropped all of my friends and social activities because "I just have so much to do at home."
Finally, and frustratingly, if it weren't for Adderall I would be fast asleep right now.I hate the feeling now. It does not feel anything like it did at the beginning, its not even really that good. But for some reason I am just as addicted to it as i have ever been. Last month I took a month's worth in just one week. This month I have just about done the same thing again.
I feel terrible about myself. I want to be a better person, and MOST importantly a better mother. This drug got ahold of me. I didn't even seek it out....by way of teachers and school psychologists the world of stimulant drugs sought me out, found me, and kidnapped me into the existence I now live.PLEASE if you are thinking about going on this med give it LOTS of thought. If addiction runs in your family I would recommend that you opt against it.
Posted by med_empowered on December 12, 2005, at 6:20:24
In reply to Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by calamityjane on December 12, 2005, at 0:56:15
hey! Yeah...my life is better now that I'm off meds (including Adderall). Try not to beat yourself up about everything; just taper off the meds, maybe do some therapy, and start living your life again...thats really all anyone can ask of you. Good luck!
Posted by Wildman on December 12, 2005, at 8:26:01
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by med_empowered on December 12, 2005, at 6:20:24
I just started Strattera for some ADD symptoms, and while it's too early to tell if it will help, I am definitely not enjoying what I have experienced so far (very nasty, chemical-feeling energy).
If Strattera doesn't work for me, I will be trying Adderall next. I, too, have a history of abusing substances (opioids, mostly) and am somewhat concerned about how I will behave with that stuff. I am the primary breadwinner in our household, and have just started a new job that requires long hours doing tedious work (IT consulting). I have to be able to really focus to do that work and so far, only pot allows me the focus time that I need.
Wildman
Posted by Phillipa on December 12, 2005, at 20:59:47
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by Wildman on December 12, 2005, at 8:26:01
First negative posts I've read on stimulants. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by med_empowered on December 13, 2005, at 2:48:28
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by Wildman on December 12, 2005, at 8:26:01
The thing about Adderall is that although it *can* lead to addiction, it seems that if you have other stuff under control--if you have your depression in check, your life stress in check, etc--actual *abuse* is probably unlikely; what's more likely is dependence, which is pretty much inevitable if you're going to take adderall for any period of time.
Posted by lemon68 on December 20, 2005, at 5:15:56
In reply to Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by calamityjane on December 12, 2005, at 0:56:15
uhh... I've been taking adderall xr for a few months now and it has really worked wonders for me. you might want to consider that just because you had a bad experience, there are others that could benefit from this med.
Posted by vbAgent on December 20, 2005, at 20:49:18
In reply to Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by calamityjane on December 12, 2005, at 0:56:15
Hi there, you're a better person for just acknowledging your problem. You will feel much better if & when you get back on track. Remember that an error doesn't become a mistake until you refuse to correct it. We all make mistakes. So, don't beat yourself up anymore!
If nothing else, you fall down to learn how to pick yourself up again.
Only God is perfect.
Posted by calamityjane on February 15, 2007, at 14:32:29
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by vbAgent on December 20, 2005, at 20:49:18
Just got back on dr-bob after being gone again for a long time.
I really do not understand why this drug is legal. Remember how Freud got all those people hooked on his "miracle drug" aka Cocaine? Well, he didnt know any better. But doctors today SHOULD! They have Freud's story to learn from, but the choose not to listen. Is it the money? Do they just not care? Why are they prescribing this harmful drug so freely?
Posted by laima on February 18, 2007, at 9:04:09
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by calamityjane on February 15, 2007, at 14:32:29
Honestly, I think people could make the same argument against any stimulant, and benzos, painkillers, numerous antidepressants, and others too, if they wished.
> I really do not understand why this drug is legal. Remember how Freud got all those people hooked on his "miracle drug" aka Cocaine? Well, he didnt know any better. But doctors today SHOULD! They have Freud's story to learn from, but the choose not to listen. Is it the money? Do they just not care? Why are they prescribing this harmful drug so freely?
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Posted by elanor roosevelt on February 19, 2007, at 23:15:06
In reply to Re: Why you should neverever begin taking Adderall,etc, posted by calamityjane on February 15, 2007, at 14:32:29
i take adderall and my house is still messy
i am pretty new to the adderall but in my wild youth was quite familiar with the pleasures of coacaine
there is not a similarity here
only once, when i was on effexor and switching steroids (for breathing not body building) and i overlapped the steroids closely, i was flying -- almost identical to a breakfast of cocaine and beer
taking adderall i can read non-fiction. it is still an effort and a challenge but at least a
possibility.
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