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Posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Hi
It's been a while since I posted. About 2 months. I was fired from my job. I can't say more than that except that it wasn't fair and politics were involved. I am crushed. I moved for this job.
Now I am suicidal. The depression hasn't improved at all. No matter what I do or take the depression is ALWAYS there! I hate it.
I've missed everyone here.
Maxie
Posted by Declan on September 15, 2005, at 0:45:29
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
I thought you weren't coming back. And now you're here. Still depressed? C'est la vie I guess, but it's nice to see you back.
Declan
Posted by gardenergirl on September 15, 2005, at 1:37:00
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Well hell. I posted above saying I hoped you were doing well before I saw this thread.
I'm so sorry about the job. That sounds so unfair and upsetting. Do you have any course for remedy at all? Any leads on a new job?
And I'm so sorry you're depressed again. It's so hard to keep coping with it, isn't it? Sometimes I think just the realization that I am getting depressed again makes me feel even worse for a bit.
How are your meds doing, and have you had thyroid checked recently?
I'm glad you're back posting, but I'm sorry for the circumstances which led to it.
gg
Posted by linkadge on September 15, 2005, at 8:04:58
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by gardenergirl on September 15, 2005, at 1:37:00
Hey Maxime. Its Linkadge. I am back at school.
I'm in your area. I'd like to meet you. Even if its just brief. Give me a babble if you're at all interested.
Linkadge
Posted by denise190466 on September 15, 2005, at 8:09:40
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Maxime,
Just to say I'm pretty much in the same boat, I was made redundant from IBM about 2 months ago and I just know my depression was a causal factor, my PBC ratings (what we get assessed on) had gone down in the last three years, infact ever since my depression return.
It does seem so unfair but what I'm going to do is find a job any job until I can find a decent one, afterall you may as well work whilst your depressed and get paid for it than sit at home feeling crap.
Are you taking any meds at the moment?
Denise
Posted by Emme on September 15, 2005, at 12:56:59
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Hi. It's nice to se your name, but that is too bad that things aren't going well. I hope you start to feel better soon.
emme
Posted by Racer on September 15, 2005, at 13:04:15
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well, posted by denise190466 on September 15, 2005, at 8:09:40
>
>
> It does seem so unfair but what I'm going to do is find a job any job until I can find a decent one, afterall you may as well work whilst your depressed and get paid for it than sit at home feeling crap.
>
>
Here's an idea for you, based on something I did during a period of unemployment: Check for jobs that might be enjoyable and less stressful. I called around to all the dog grooming places in my area, and got a job washing dogs at one of them. It was hard work physically, and I learned that I do not, in fact, like *all* dogs, but it was also a heck of a lot better than temp work in offices or working retail. There's something, for me, about spending a day with animals that soothes me.Maxime, I am so very, very sorry that you're in such a state. I wish so much there was something I could do. Email me? Selfishly, while I'm very sorry about the cause, I'm very glad to hear from you.
With great affection to you.
Posted by ed_uk on September 15, 2005, at 13:56:14
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Dear Maxie,
I'm so glad you're back. I've really missed you. (((Maxie)))
I definately think you should meet linkadge. That would be really cool.
Are you still taking Parnate?
Love
~Ed x
Posted by ClearSkies on September 15, 2005, at 15:15:44
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Maxime, we all missed you so from here! I'm sorry you had such an experience with the job and are feeling so badly.
I hope we can all help you through this.
(((Maxime)))
ClearSkies, formerly PartlyCloudy. The weather can improve.
Posted by Phillipa on September 15, 2005, at 20:18:38
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by ClearSkies on September 15, 2005, at 15:15:44
Maxie, Did you get my E-mails. I got your last one that fateful day. And did you get ahold of your old pdoc in other province about the Adderal? And please meet with Link. I think you two could help each other. I'm not home hurricaine sent us packing to Charlotte. You're right about full time work being too stressful. Can you get your volunteer work back? Love your friend, Jan
Posted by UgottaHaveHOPE on September 15, 2005, at 23:24:27
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by Declan on September 15, 2005, at 0:45:29
feel free to talk about anything you want. hang in there. we're always here for you, as you have been for us..
Posted by denise1966 on September 16, 2005, at 13:39:24
In reply to Maxime and Denise, an idea..., posted by Racer on September 15, 2005, at 13:04:15
Thanks Racer, I love animals so would love to wash dogs, not sure about Rotweillers though, not sure about the spelling either :-)
I don't think I'd be able to get a job like that in the UK, they tend to be volunteers I think.
Anyway, I'm still job searching, not much success though.
I've even started to clean my ex-boyfriends house and do his gardening for a bit of extra cash, I like cleaning, makes me feel like I'm in control. I even offered to do another male friends cleaning for him but he said he'd rather I went on a date with him than clean his bog :-)
Denise
Posted by sunsplashinwaves on September 16, 2005, at 19:48:07
In reply to Re: To Racer, posted by denise1966 on September 16, 2005, at 13:39:24
I am not sure where you are job searching however I am a hiring Supervisor in a Call Center on the East Coast... And I am hiring!!! Where are you located?
Posted by Tom Twilight on September 17, 2005, at 8:38:14
In reply to Re: To Racer, posted by sunsplashinwaves on September 16, 2005, at 19:48:07
Hey Maxine
I'm glad your back, although I'm sorry your still depressed.
What meds are you currently on?
Is it still Parnate and Dexedrine?I'm sorry your job didn't work out, "It never rains but it pours" as they say.
Racers suggestion of a change of job is a good idea.
Have you thought about working in a hospital?
In the UK you can be a Nursing Assistant, or a Psychiatric Nursing Assistant without needing nursing qualifications.I like working in my local hospital because theres a good atmosphere, which may sound odd! However I find it preferable to most other places I've worked.
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 18:50:46
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by Declan on September 15, 2005, at 0:45:29
> I thought you weren't coming back. And now you're here. Still depressed? C'est la vie I guess, but it's nice to see you back.
> DeclanHey Declan.
No, I had to leave because I only puter access at work. They monitor the sites we visit so I couldn't have psychobabble show up. Now I have lost my job and I am using a computer at the library. So I can go to any site.
My depression never left. I worked while under the pressure of my depression. That's not why I lost my job. I just had an idiot for a manager.
Everything is as was when I left. :-(
Maxi
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 18:54:18
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well, posted by denise190466 on September 15, 2005, at 8:09:40
Hi Denise. I only lasted 2 months in the job. It was more a case of politics and BS than anything else. Although I had so work so hard to achieve and be productive but I am used to that.
I don't know what to do now.
Maxime
> Maxime,
>
> Just to say I'm pretty much in the same boat, I was made redundant from IBM about 2 months ago and I just know my depression was a causal factor, my PBC ratings (what we get assessed on) had gone down in the last three years, infact ever since my depression return.
>
> It does seem so unfair but what I'm going to do is find a job any job until I can find a decent one, afterall you may as well work whilst your depressed and get paid for it than sit at home feeling crap.
>
> Are you taking any meds at the moment?
>
>
> Denise
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 18:56:25
In reply to Maxime and Denise, an idea..., posted by Racer on September 15, 2005, at 13:04:15
Hi
I have tried that. So far, nothing. I had to dumb down my resume without leaving huge gaps. It's a really trying time. I moved away from home, started a new job, lost a job ... I am being tested.
Maxime
>
> Here's an idea for you, based on something I did during a period of unemployment: Check for jobs that might be enjoyable and less stressful. I called around to all the dog grooming places in my area, and got a job washing dogs at one of them. It was hard work physically, and I learned that I do not, in fact, like *all* dogs, but it was also a heck of a lot better than temp work in offices or working retail. There's something, for me, about spending a day with animals that soothes me.
>
> Maxime, I am so very, very sorry that you're in such a state. I wish so much there was something I could do. Email me? Selfishly, while I'm very sorry about the cause, I'm very glad to hear from you.
>
> With great affection to you.
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:00:21
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by ed_uk on September 15, 2005, at 13:56:14
Dear Ed
I've missed you guys too. :-)
I just babbled Linkdage and said I would like to meet him. I hope I do.
I am still on the Parnate. The only thing I am changing is I am slowly reducing the clonazapam. I was taking 4 mg and I am now at 3.5 mg. I will have to stay there for a while. I tried to go down to 3.25 and I could sleep. Also now isn't the time to change my meds.
Maxi
xoxo> Dear Maxie,
>
> I'm so glad you're back. I've really missed you. (((Maxie)))
>
> I definately think you should meet linkadge. That would be really cool.
>
> Are you still taking Parnate?
>
> Love
>
> ~Ed x
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:01:19
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by ClearSkies on September 15, 2005, at 15:15:44
> Maxime, we all missed you so from here! I'm sorry you had such an experience with the job and are feeling so badly.
> I hope we can all help you through this.
> (((Maxime)))
> ClearSkies, formerly PartlyCloudy. The weather can improve.Thank you so much. :-) You are so sweet.
Maxime
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:03:15
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by Emme on September 15, 2005, at 12:56:59
> Hi. It's nice to se your name, but that is too bad that things aren't going well. I hope you start to feel better soon.
>
> emmeThanks Emme. Me too. I often wonder if they ever will. When I was working I was just as depressed as when I when I wasn't. The only difference was that I was making money.
I don't think this depression will ever let go of me.
Maxime
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:06:26
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well, posted by Phillipa on September 15, 2005, at 20:18:38
Yes, I go one of your emails. I haven't been able to check. I only have 2 hours on the computer and I use it for job search with 15 minutes for emails and or psycho-babble.
I haven't checked about the Adderall yet. I will this week as I am going home for a few days.
I feel like I am dreaming. Volunteer work is fine unless you have rent etc to pay. I need to find and fast.
Maxi
> Maxie, Did you get my E-mails. I got your last one that fateful day. And did you get ahold of your old pdoc in other province about the Adderal? And please meet with Link. I think you two could help each other. I'm not home hurricaine sent us packing to Charlotte. You're right about full time work being too stressful. Can you get your volunteer work back? Love your friend, Jan
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:07:40
In reply to Re: Please keep posting ..., posted by UgottaHaveHOPE on September 15, 2005, at 23:24:27
> feel free to talk about anything you want. hang in there. we're always here for you, as you have been for us..
Thanks ... it's hard. I don't know what to post. It will all sound the same ... like a broken record. But thank you. :-)
Maxime
Posted by Maxime on September 18, 2005, at 19:10:08
In reply to Glad your back!, posted by Tom Twilight on September 17, 2005, at 8:38:14
Hi Tom :-)
I am still on the Parnate. I only take the dexedrine if I really have to. In Canada you need to have certificates to work in a hospital. I have thought about getting my degree in Social Work though. But then again ... I just don't know. I just feel so depleted right now.
Maxime
> Hey Maxine
>
> I'm glad your back, although I'm sorry your still depressed.
>
> What meds are you currently on?
> Is it still Parnate and Dexedrine?
>
> I'm sorry your job didn't work out, "It never rains but it pours" as they say.
>
> Racers suggestion of a change of job is a good idea.
>
> Have you thought about working in a hospital?
> In the UK you can be a Nursing Assistant, or a Psychiatric Nursing Assistant without needing nursing qualifications.
>
> I like working in my local hospital because theres a good atmosphere, which may sound odd! However I find it preferable to most other places I've worked.
Posted by KaraS on September 19, 2005, at 0:51:06
In reply to I'm back and not doing well, posted by Maxime on September 14, 2005, at 23:46:55
Hi,
I just wanted to say it's nice to see your name here again. I'm so sorry for the reason why. I know what you're going through. Hang in there. We're here for you.
K
Posted by Paulbwell on September 19, 2005, at 2:08:35
In reply to Re: I'm back and not doing well » Maxime, posted by KaraS on September 19, 2005, at 0:51:06
Hang in there Maxime,
Things WILL change they always do, thats the nature of reality, things are in constant motion in our lives.
I know Clonazepam contributed to my Depressed mood when i took it, now i don't, perhaps you could evaluate that?
Cheers
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