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Posted by linkadge on July 28, 2005, at 21:24:10
I don't know how to describe it, but I feel evil.
Almost a paranoid type of feeling, like someone is staring into my soul.Linkadge
Posted by Deneb on July 28, 2005, at 21:51:10
In reply to I feel evil, posted by linkadge on July 28, 2005, at 21:24:10
I sometimes feel evil too, very evil. There was a time when all I could do was imagine people's heads being chopped off and other horrible things. I felt evil that it didn't bother me. There was also this other time where I couldn't stand things that were too cute...like babies, I would think of torturing them and then feel horrible that I could think such evil things.
I'm not sure what was up with that.
Deneb
Posted by 4WD on July 28, 2005, at 22:14:28
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by Deneb on July 28, 2005, at 21:51:10
> I sometimes feel evil too, very evil. There was a time when all I could do was imagine people's heads being chopped off and other horrible things. I felt evil that it didn't bother me. There was also this other time where I couldn't stand things that were too cute...like babies, I would think of torturing them and then feel horrible that I could think such evil things.
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> I'm not sure what was up with that.
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> DenebI've been there, too. Not really wanting to hurt babies, but thinking it would be somehow satisfying to pinch a baby to make it cry. And then I could comfort it and it would think I was nice for comforting it.
Linkadge has this feeling just come on or has it been happening for a while. You know you AREN"T evil, don't you? That's its just a diseased thought floating around in your head - it's not you.
Marsha
Posted by crazychickuk on July 28, 2005, at 22:58:53
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by 4WD on July 28, 2005, at 22:14:28
I had this exact same problem too..
it will subside dont let it get better of you..
your brain is confused due to the withdrawl of meds !! (my shrink told me this for me)
bare with it
Donna xx
Posted by Declan on July 28, 2005, at 23:52:38
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by crazychickuk on July 28, 2005, at 22:58:53
The line between good and evil cuts through the heart of every person is how the saying goes, isn't it?
Declan
Posted by john berk on July 29, 2005, at 15:58:59
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by Declan on July 28, 2005, at 23:52:38
Hi! I have ocd, so unexplainable thoughts are nothing new to me. from expeirence, and from my doctors fact filled cranium, i know the best way to deal with unwanted thoughts is to allow them to pass, and not dwell on them having any significant meaning. just let them be there, and go!! our minds are capable of any thought, as is true with everyone!! hope you begin to feel better!!
Posted by Phillipa on July 29, 2005, at 18:40:35
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by john berk on July 29, 2005, at 15:58:59
Ah Link, you're not evil. You're just going through a tough time trying to figure out whether meds help or not and probably some withdrawl too. Feel better . Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by john berk on July 29, 2005, at 20:02:10
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by Phillipa on July 29, 2005, at 18:40:35
Hi Phillipa, how are you?
that was excellent advice i've had that with med withdrawal also!! take care phillipa, feel well "link"!!!
Posted by spriggy on July 30, 2005, at 18:00:05
In reply to Re: I feel evil » Phillipa, posted by john berk on July 29, 2005, at 20:02:10
I don't think you are evil Link- despite how you feel.
You have a good heart, everyone has "bad thoughts" sometimes that seem out of control. It's the "acting on them" that makes us the person we are.
I had to be on steroids once-- HATED them but I remember that paranoid/evil feeling I had too. It is so hard to describe.
It was like I was a monster inside and hated myself for it.
I think when you are TRULY evil, you don't care that you are and it wouldn't even bother you to be that way. The fact that this feeling bothers is you a sure sign that you aren't evil.
((((HUGS))))
Posted by Sebastian on July 31, 2005, at 12:58:09
In reply to I feel evil, posted by linkadge on July 28, 2005, at 21:24:10
Is this due to the Ritilin?
Posted by linkadge on July 31, 2005, at 18:52:40
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by Sebastian on July 31, 2005, at 12:58:09
No, I havn't started the ritalin actually.
Linkadge
Posted by linkadge on August 1, 2005, at 17:57:35
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by linkadge on July 31, 2005, at 18:52:40
Its like my desires are evil. Everytime I "want" something it is as if my brain is telling me there is something wrong with that. I feel evil for wanting.
Linkadge
Posted by Declan on August 1, 2005, at 20:50:04
In reply to Re: I feel evil, posted by linkadge on August 1, 2005, at 17:57:35
Don't Buddhists, and others too I'd imagine, say that suffering is caused by desire (and attachment)?
And one version of original sin that I've heard is that our desires are disordered.
So is it possible that some wise (unconcious?) part of yourself is trying to tell you something?
Declan
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