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Posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
i dont like who i am either....
anyway, just being my adrenaline pumped self, someone give me a reality check.
i talk to much, and it gets on peoples nerves, i have inner voices telling me to shut up.
I'm getting out of this hell hole, but i have to much stress to do it, if i go to a danm hospital, well maybe ill meet someone crazy like me..... forget it.
I cant just stop my life and go into a hospital, i had a rage last night, i got it out, shattered my mirror of myself, im in pieces. Thats just a mild breakdown..
Why am i just staring at this compter?
Posted by rainbowbrite on March 7, 2005, at 20:15:00
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
Sometimes Matt....We can just leave our lives. if we don't take proper care of our selves than we end up feeling worse and destrying our lives. It is a decision that needs to be made based on whether you want to feel better or not. I understand how hard it must be for you but we can not get you the proper help. You need to take yourself in. Do you want help? Do you want to feel better? Do you want to get some assistance with your mother? If you anserwed yes to any of those than I would serously consider admitting yourself. there are people who can help you. Do it for you!
We are always here for you but we are limited in what we can do.
Take care of yourself OK?
Posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:21:04
In reply to Re: I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by rainbowbrite on March 7, 2005, at 20:15:00
too much pessimism....
Posted by Spriggy on March 7, 2005, at 20:59:00
In reply to Re: I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by rainbowbrite on March 7, 2005, at 20:15:00
Matt,
I have a two children, one is very special needs (and depends on me for everything), my husband is a pastor and I am depended on by a large number at my church... and yet, I came to a point where I realized I could not afford to NOT go to a hospital and get help.I kept thinking, " i just can't leave all my responsibilities, especially my son" but you knwo what? It was the best thing I could've done for him becuase I got myself stabilized.
I was NO good for him while I was here like a basket case.
You must take care of your needs as they are now.. If you feel suicidal and desperate, you need to go to the ER.I will keep praying for you!
Posted by Dinah on March 7, 2005, at 22:00:16
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
Matt, I've always said I wouldn't go in the hospital, but I almost agreed last time. It's not the worst thing you can do.
In fact, if a week in the hospital will increase your productivity the rest of the time, which is more efficient? Isn't it better to take a leave of absence for a week, then live at reasonable capacity rather than continue barely scraping by?
Look at the long term, and you'll see that getting stabilized on the proper medications is the sensible thing to do.
Posted by Dinah on March 7, 2005, at 22:02:02
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
a very accepting place.
Don't worry about your reputation. You'll be fine.
But do consider getting some real life help. I'm afraid we just can't help you find the proper medication regimen.
Posted by Maxime on March 8, 2005, at 0:24:35
In reply to Re: and maxime, dont post, posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:21:04
> too much pessimism....
Yeah, I know. But you don't have the right to tell me not to post.
I know I am ball of negativity. I don't even like being around myself.
So I retain the right to post as long as I am "civil" ... and you don't have read it.
I do care about you though. And I really wish you would go into the hospital because I don't think you are a lost cause. Quite the opposite. And I see someone who is in pain and I empathize with you. And I see someone who needs to get out of his own head for a while and they can help you at the hospital. And you aren't crazy.
But yes, you are right. I am pessimistic. A loser. A worthless ball of toe-jam. This much I know is true. But soon I will be a f*rt in the mist.
Maxime
Posted by Phillipa on March 8, 2005, at 0:28:04
In reply to Re: and maxime, dont post, posted by Maxime on March 8, 2005, at 0:24:35
Hey, where's all this pessimism coming from. First it's Matt, then it's Maxime. Matt, it's your time to go into the hospital where you can get proper help and the medications that you need. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by partlycloudy on March 8, 2005, at 6:41:30
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
Matt, you can see how many people here are concerned for your health and your situation. I am another person encouraging you to go to a hospital and get the help that you need.
A break, a breather, some distance and time. Some professional direction on medications and time to adjust to them.
pc
Posted by ed_uk on March 8, 2005, at 10:04:07
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
Hi :-)
>i talk to much, and it gets on peoples nerves
Well, you don't get on my nerves, I like to read your posts.
Ed.
Posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:06:11
In reply to I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:05:40
I'm am Matt Mcconathy, pessimism is personality with a kick.
Im in exams right now, as i said no time for hostital, i have major stress at times.
I while back i thought i was losing my mind, but i'm coming back together, slowly, lets hope i come back with a something called a brain.
I lost track of my drive, but my dopamine drive has activated again, with adrenaline kicked. that's me.
Studying with NO amphetamine substance whatso ever in my body.
I've got to get back.
seeeeeeeeeeeyo later!
Posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:16:02
In reply to Re: and maxime, dont post, posted by mmcconathy on March 7, 2005, at 20:21:04
Dr-Bob make a Pessimsism Board.
I was joking about your personality, you are a scream! comments have their own witty kick. I love reading something that i wont expect.
Im back together, i dont know what happened, reality seemed to go "away", i dont know i just lost it, felt i was really altering somehow.
Buts still i dont trust my feelings, so im still going in for an MRI, if i have a brain that still intact...
You keep it going!
Posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:29:31
In reply to Re: I have made a bad reputation, but anyways... » mmcconathy, posted by Dinah on March 7, 2005, at 22:00:16
i will be back to thank everyone else, partlycloudy, get sunny. Dinah, i got the medication, Reality Check 20mg.
Phillipa, your the man, and if get on your nerves, take your diazepam 10mg, if your angry take 20mg.
Gotta run....
Posted by Phillipa on March 8, 2005, at 19:38:04
In reply to Re: maxime you are a scream!, posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:16:02
Good going Matt! The stress of exams may be what triggered your panic. Now that the end of exams is drawing near, and you're gaining some of your self-esteem back, hopefully you'll feel better. You still have your sense of humor! YOu can be funny! Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by partlycloudy on March 8, 2005, at 19:52:31
In reply to Re: I have made a bad reputation, but anyways..., posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:29:31
Posted by zeugma on March 8, 2005, at 20:04:48
In reply to Re: craming for finals, posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:06:11
Studying with NO amphetamine substance whatso ever in my body.>>
You are a braver man than i am.
-z
Posted by Maxime on March 8, 2005, at 21:22:48
In reply to Re: maxime you are a scream! » mmcconathy, posted by Phillipa on March 8, 2005, at 19:38:04
Posted by zeugma on March 9, 2005, at 16:04:59
In reply to Re: and maxime, dont post, posted by Maxime on March 8, 2005, at 0:24:35
I didn't think you were joking. Are you considering hospitalization?
It was much better for me to be in the hospital than alone with my self-loathing thoughts.
-z
Posted by Maxime on March 10, 2005, at 1:31:32
In reply to Re: craming for finals, posted by mmcconathy on March 8, 2005, at 19:06:11
On the 6th you said you had restarted the Adderall http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20050304/msgs/467399.html So now on the 8th you say you are stim free.
Which is it?
> I'm am Matt Mcconathy, pessimism is personality with a kick.
>
> Im in exams right now, as i said no time for hostital, i have major stress at times.
>
> I while back i thought i was losing my mind, but i'm coming back together, slowly, lets hope i come back with a something called a brain.
>
> I lost track of my drive, but my dopamine drive has activated again, with adrenaline kicked. that's me.
>
> Studying with NO amphetamine substance whatso ever in my body.
>
> I've got to get back.
>
> seeeeeeeeeeeyo later!
Posted by mmcconathy on March 10, 2005, at 19:12:28
In reply to Re: craming for finals, posted by Maxime on March 10, 2005, at 1:31:32
get a life.
I have adderall 40mg, i stop adderall frequently to see what will happen, and if i can go with out it, but i frequently will get very disorganized to the point of panic.
I been on breaks many times with it, from my doctor, i he didnt refill the presrciption for a while.
not in the mood for you no longer.
Posted by Dr. Bob on March 10, 2005, at 22:35:39
In reply to Re: craming for finals, posted by mmcconathy on March 10, 2005, at 19:12:28
> get a life.
>
> not in the mood for you no longer.Please don't post anything that could lead others to feel put down.
If you or others have questions about this or about posting policies in general, or are interested in alternative ways of expressing yourself, please see the FAQ:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/faq.html#civil
Follow-ups regarding these issues should be redirected to Psycho-Babble Administration. They, as well as replies to the above post, should of course themselves be civil.
Thanks,
Bob
Posted by mmcconathy on March 11, 2005, at 14:24:35
In reply to Re: please be civil » mmcconathy, posted by Dr. Bob on March 10, 2005, at 22:35:39
sorry dr bob but i have blown by top with her comments
but with all do respect back to you.
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