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Posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 11:41:32
In reply to Re: Last Night » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 11:31:41
Sandy - Thanks for sharing. Keep distracting yourself! Maybe you should splint your thumb with a popsicle stick or something? And just forget about Mother's Day if you want! I can understand how that might make you feel right now :-).
We care because you are a wonderful human who is worth caring about, #1. We also care because we know where you are. I do know what you mean by just existing. It's the nothing/numbness feeling.
Here's the deal. If you don't want to post, you are really welcome to call me. I can find out about nursing school for you, explain things and see about your grades. I KNOW you don't want to think about the future. But, you will have one and you will eventually care.
It's okay to be tired of it all sweetie! I understand that. Please remember one thing: it is your disease, chemicals, mental state - whatever you want to call it - that is telling you that you're worthless, that is draining your energy, etc.
Go to open tonight, keep communicating as much as you have the energy to do. Right now it's your best defense. Please call me if you want. I really don't mind! 1-800-222-8215 x9507.
~ Lynne
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Posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 11:46:36
In reply to Re: Last Night » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 11:31:41
Oops, just a thought about this statement I made:
>I've been fighting with myself all day not to take a trek to the woods again. I don't think I like the idea of Mother's Day coming up. But I'm still here. And right at this split second in time, I'm not fighting to keep myself here.<
I do not have PLANS for Mother's Day. *smile* This was not a statement to jump on. I think I'd blow my cool if the cops ever showed back up at my door again. I just meant that Mother's Day bothers me this year......but not *suicidally* bothering me. Don't make decisions based on past history, please.
Sandra
Posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 11:51:20
In reply to Re: Last Night » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 11:41:32
>Maybe you should splint your thumb with a popsicle stick or something?<
Actually, I can't straighten it out so I wouldn't be able to splint it. Lol. Guess I'll have a bent, crooked thumb now. How sexy!!!
Take care, hun!
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 13:05:41
In reply to Re: Last Night » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 11:51:20
Just a short time ago, there was a knock on my door.
I thought it was the cops....again.
Freaked myself right out! Lol!!
They left, I changed my clothes so that I could bolt.
Opened the door.....
And it was a Fed-Ex box sitting outside my door.
Ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talk about a RELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dr. Bob, you've turned me into a paranoid!! LOL!!
I just couldn't believe that you would have sent the cops again. I was freaking out!!! *big releaved smile*
Phew!
Well, that took 10 years off of my life. Giggle.
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 13:25:18
In reply to FREAKED ME OUT!!, posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 13:05:41
Well that's a relief. . . what'd you get, anything good?
~ Lynne
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> I thought it was the cops....again.
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> Freaked myself right out! Lol!!
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> They left, I changed my clothes so that I could bolt.
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> Opened the door.....
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> And it was a Fed-Ex box sitting outside my door.
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> Ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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> Talk about a RELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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> Dr. Bob, you've turned me into a paranoid!! LOL!!
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> I just couldn't believe that you would have sent the cops again. I was freaking out!!! *big releaved smile*
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> Phew!
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> Well, that took 10 years off of my life. Giggle.
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> Hugs,
> Sandy
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Posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 13:30:16
In reply to Re: FREAKED ME OUT!! » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 13:25:18
> Well that's a relief. . . what'd you get, anything good?<
Lynne,
I haven't had a good giggle like that in awhile! Can you see me bolting from the cops?? HA!!! It was just such a relief that I can't stop giggling. Hee hee!!
As for the Fed-Ex box, naw.....nothing good. Just supplies.
I wonder how far I would have gotten before I tripped over my own feet?? HA!! Or ran smack into a wall!!!
Have fun!
Sandy
Posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 14:30:49
In reply to Re: FREAKED ME OUT!! » LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on May 6, 2004, at 13:30:16
Too funny! It's amazing how you can become conditioned like that! I was in a fender bender this past weekend (my fault) and now I jump every time I get near another car, I stop way in advance. Sort of the same principle!
We have a band concert tonight & soccer practice plus homework. Are your kids pretty self-sufficient? Mine are getting there (2nd, 3rd & 6th grades).
Hope you have a peaceful afternoon & evening. Don't let your "demons" get to you - they're not you, you know! Take deep breaths or clean ... I find those 2 things work wonders :-)
~ Lynne
Posted by SandyWeb on May 7, 2004, at 6:59:32
In reply to Re: FREAKED ME OUT!! » SandyWeb, posted by LynneDa on May 6, 2004, at 14:30:49
Hey all,
I'm feeling better now. Yeah! It's good to have some time left with you! *smile*
But what an odd night I had last night. I would wake up, and be totally confused as to where I was. I would look around the room, and try to figure out the layout of the apartment. I couldn't seem to get it right. Different times through the night this would happen, and it was a little disconcerting. It felt like I didn't know where I was, and I just couldn't figure out how the hallway looked, where the door went, etc. ODD!!
Then I kept waking up from the beginnings of nightmares. Never quite made it to a nightmare, though....just the scared feeling. Odd again!
And then this morning.....the best yet!! Lol! I thought it was Saturday rather than Friday!!!! I didn't get the kids up for school!! My radio alarm went off, and I was so surprised that The Breakfast Club gang had a program on Saturday....I thought they just did it on the weekdays! I looked out the window earlier in the morning to see what the weekend would look like. Then, around 8am, my daughter comes to me and asks why I didn't get her up. Well, because it's Saturday! Duh!
I may be feeling better, but I also think my brain is being taken over by another! Ha! What the heck is this all about? And I still feel all confused and weird today. Must have done a bad drug last night or something!! Ha ha!!!
Anyways, that's the beginning of my day. And how is yours?
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by susielalala on May 7, 2004, at 17:47:13
In reply to Odd Night, posted by SandyWeb on May 7, 2004, at 6:59:32
Can I ask you a question please? What meds are you on ?
Posted by SandyWeb on May 7, 2004, at 20:01:20
In reply to Re: Odd Night, posted by susielalala on May 7, 2004, at 17:47:13
> Can I ask you a question please? What meds are you on ?<
I haven't been on anything for about a month now. This is me au naturale! *smile* But I sure feel like my brain is fried!
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on May 9, 2004, at 0:19:25
In reply to Re: Odd Night » susielalala, posted by SandyWeb on May 7, 2004, at 20:01:20
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Posted by jlynne on May 9, 2004, at 10:59:12
In reply to What to Say?, posted by SandyWeb on May 9, 2004, at 0:19:25
I hope you have a lovely day, Sandy. I am getting ready to get ready to leave to see my mother. Having brunch with the kids, first.
We had a crazy time in open last night, eh? Nice to be able to be silly once in awhile (*smile*). I tell you, that room was getting crowded - kind of like a slumber party:~)
Take care, sweetie.
((((HUGS)))) ((((Sandy)))) ((((friends))))
...jlynne
Posted by mystic on May 9, 2004, at 14:24:17
In reply to Odd Night, posted by SandyWeb on May 7, 2004, at 6:59:32
Hey Sandy...Happy Mothers Day..hope you are able to enjoy a little bit of the day with the children...this is your day enjoy..Hope you are feeling a little better..Your freind mystic
Posted by SandyWeb on May 9, 2004, at 18:03:52
In reply to RE::: Happy Mothers Day Sandy, posted by mystic on May 9, 2004, at 14:24:17
Thanks, girls, for the Happy Mother's Day! They are the only well-wishes that I got, other than an email from my mum. The kids didn't even bother to mention it. Ho hum.
I might show up in Open later tonight, when the kids are in bed. Have to keep safe for the day.
Hugs,
Sandy
Posted by mystic on May 9, 2004, at 18:14:18
In reply to RE::: Happy Mothers Day Sandy, posted by mystic on May 9, 2004, at 14:24:17
Hey Sandy sorry about the kids..they might not have remembered or you know how young children are...But I'm sure they love you and that they appreciate you every day!!!!!....My daughter just started buying mothers day cards and I know that she loves me...Hang in there my little friend...Take care luvya Mystic
Posted by SandyWeb on May 11, 2004, at 23:03:58
In reply to RE::: hey sandy, posted by mystic on May 9, 2004, at 18:14:18
Hey there,
Can anyone get the chat function to work for Open? I keep trying tonight, and it sends me over to Yahoo Chat. I don't want to go there! Lol.
Am I doing something weird, or are you all not able to get in???
Sandy
Posted by jlynne on May 12, 2004, at 0:09:31
In reply to Open, posted by SandyWeb on May 11, 2004, at 23:03:58
Sandy, I am in open now . . . you are probably in bed, tho. Who knows what the problem is/was?? Yahoo has a mind of its own. Sorry I missed you, tho. My younger daughter took me out to dinner tonight and we made an evening of it. She had to work on mothers' day, so we made up for it tonight.
I hope to see you in open again, sweetie.
((((Sandy)))) ((((HUGS)))) ((((friendship))))
...jlynne
Posted by LynneDa on May 12, 2004, at 11:49:21
In reply to Re: Open » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on May 12, 2004, at 0:09:31
Hi Sandy - Just checking in to see how you're doing. Are you having some up days? I'm playing with my med dosage, trying to get rid of my fogginess and grogginess without bringing back depression & anxiety, so not sure how the next week or so will go!
I hope you're having fun in Open and able to get some support and positive energy! I'm heading to Philly for a few days, for work, so won't be on-line til next Monday.
Take good care, okay???
~ Lynne
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Posted by jlynne on May 13, 2004, at 0:24:18
In reply to Re: Open » jlynne, posted by LynneDa on May 12, 2004, at 11:49:21
Hey, Sandy . . . missed you today. How are you doing, sweetie? I think I ate too much chinese food last night - and then leftovers tonight . . . my pants feel kinda tight:~)
How are your *angels*? Did you find out why they are no longer partners? They are probably both so good that their supervisor assigned them each to some rookies to train, eh?
Talk to you soon:~)
((((Sandy)))) ((((HUGS)))) ((((soft strokes))))
...jlynne
Posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 14:07:33
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on May 13, 2004, at 0:24:18
How you doing, sweetie . . . haven't heard your lovely voice in quite awhile:~)
I hope you think about us and drop a line or two soon; if you stay away too long you will end up having to write a book in order to catch us up! (*smile*)
I am thinking about you, and you are always in my prayers, Sandy.
((((HUGS)))) ((((smiles)))) ((((friendship))))
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on May 15, 2004, at 16:56:10
In reply to Miss you, Sandy . . ., posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 14:07:33
It's a really, really bad day today. I don't know what is happening. I feel like I'm stoned! It even hurts to read this screen, and it's the first time I've been on the computer in 2 days.
Actually, I've been in bed since Thursday!!! How many hours is that??? And I feel so odd! And I have to go to the washroom and cry and cry. Then I come back out and FLOAT all over the place. I swear I'm on some kind of drug!
I feel just awful. This has to be one of the worse days since all this lovelyness has started with me. I can't stand it. I'm so out of it, and I'm so sad, and I'm so mad, and I'm so hopeless, and I'm so blah!
I want the sun to hurry up and go down. The light bothers me. I want it to be dark. I feel so odd.
Sorry to have disappeared for a few days. The brain has been doing funky things.
Sandra
Posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 17:23:47
In reply to Re: Miss you, Sandy . . . » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on May 15, 2004, at 16:56:10
Sandy, how awful that you feel this way. I can remember going through something like that, and I am trying to remember what I did about it. I think it usually happened after spending a lot of time in bed, like you just did.
I think being horizontal for awhile helps, and I think getting some fluids in your body might help, too (something sweet, like juice or soda).
The sadness and crying will come and go, but it won't last forever, sweetie - it is part of the healing process. Are you able to eat? If you're not eating, that will add to the feeling of despair. I used to drink instant breakfast when I couldn't get anything else down.
Hang in there, love . . . it *will* get better, I promise.
((((Sandy)))) ((((HUGS)))) ((((soft strokes))))
...jlynne
Posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 18:02:32
In reply to Re: Miss you, Sandy . . . » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 17:23:47
> I think being horizontal for awhile helps <
Sorry, I meant to say being "vertical" helps . . .
. . . blame it on the meds - - certainly *NOT* my AGE! (*smile*)
((((maturity))))
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on May 15, 2004, at 20:59:00
In reply to Re: Miss you, Sandy . . . » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 17:23:47
Difficult time tonight. I don't think I've enjoyed 2004. *lopsided smile*
Sandra
Posted by jlynne on May 15, 2004, at 22:28:13
In reply to Re: Miss you, Sandy . . ., posted by SandyWeb on May 15, 2004, at 20:59:00
Sandy, I'm sorry you're having a difficult time tonight, and I can certainly understand about 2004 being an unlikeable year for you. But, you know what?? Once you are through this, you will NEVER have to go through it again - it might get bad, but it will never get *THIS* bad ever again; I promise!
Ride the waves, sweetie; float on your back if you have to.
((((HUGS)))) ((((next year)))) ((((better times))))
...jlynne
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