Posted by dsm3r on May 8, 2007, at 23:54:59
Hey all -
Don't know where to go, or to talk to. I've been on Effexor for 5 years now. Been on medications of one kind or another for 15+/- years for managing Bi-polar.
No complaints on Effexor compared to what it has done for me. But I wanted to try a med holiday - see if I can actually TRY to be off meds for a while.
I talked with my psych doc and psych nurse, and we agreed to give it a try. The plan was to cut down from 300mg Effexor x1 a day to 150mg of Effexor x1 a day for 6 weeks, then to 75mg for another 6 weeks, and off. Then we would slowly wean off Seroquel the same way - 300 mg x1 a day
(current doseage) to 150 mg and so on.The reason for the slow decrease is my history of suicide attempts - the first at age 4 and self-mutilating. I get really depressed -
Anyway - it's been 1 and a half weeks at 150mg Effexor and I feel like crap to put it mildly.
My first suicide thought in 2 years. I mean really thought about it. This just sucks. I'm feeling empty. Like being sucked into a black, numbing void. I have no energy, apathetic. I'm so pitiful right now.I just wished I could have or steal a few months of being med free. Just once in 15 years, not to have to pop my happy pills. To feel like I did when I was pregnant and only having to take Prozac because my hormones were "working".
Sorry for long post - just didn't know where to turn at 12:00 a.m. Will notify my doc and nurse and go back to the way it was.
Thank you.
poster:dsm3r
thread:757011
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/wdrawl/20070419/msgs/757011.html