Posted by elanor roosevelt on February 4, 2008, at 23:46:47
In reply to Re: Neurotransmitters in need: new meds?, posted by Racer on February 3, 2008, at 13:15:48
Racer
I am bipolar depressivehave swung between outgoing and upbeat and angry and alienated since i was a child
also some learning disorders
anti-depressants sometimes help me be more patient
this is good because i have a real donald duck kind of temperi have lots of energy and when the depression interferes i feel worthless
i am a big walker but things start seeming far away and i have no personal sense of future
i've been having trouble getting out of bed the last few years and this after 20 years of being an early riser is disorienting
i would love to know why/how the lexapro and celexa worked
it was great
i laughed like i used to
unfortunately that ended in a nasty meltdown and although i have tried to revisit these meds, it hasn't workedi come from a very quiet family and I am the only outgoing personality (like my dad who died when he was about my age)
i have been sober for 19 years
drinking used to trigger my "up" side to some extent
i'm trapped now
no meds are working
adderall keeping me a step ahead of the depression
getting a it distrustful og people
i am down to trivastal once a day. i take it at night and wake up feeling okay
not great but not in a state of despairchronic problems with my mouth from nervous habits that are worsened by the meds (swollen tongue, ulcers)
i have that depressive pallor nowi'm speaking at an industry event next week
when i am there surrounded by people i will get my energy up but i hate to think of it nowoh yes, that's a clue
my energy is self-generating once it gets goingbut i get scattered
my house is a nightmare of clutter
but it's clean
poster:elanor roosevelt
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