Posted by zonked on February 25, 2014, at 6:13:02
I'm feeling less phobic than I was, but not significantly so. I get the feeling in the SF bay area that there are just TOO MANY PEOPLE wherever I go, and that I am being judged. It's weird, maybe a byproduct of previous trauma and living for awhile in a less-population-dense area...
I've avoided going to the doctor because my medicare advantage plan is stuck in WA state, I fired my shrink before leaving, and the only way I can get coverage is to go to the ER. ERs don't like that. :) Scripts are still covered, though.
Because I have no stimulant "in the mix" right now I've fallen on old habits...
Current RXes: Nardil 15mg tid (90mg/day), xanax 1mg big prn. Missing: Dexedrine spansules, ambien 10mg
So, falling and staying asleep is difficult. I am not going to the ER tomorrow, and I am going to try to call my Medicare Advantage plan in WA and get them to make an exception to cover an outpatient visit until I either return to WA or change to a local plan.
I don't sleep enough. Then, I drink a lot of coffee or energy drinks (I know, not good for anxiety) to stay awake. Then I find settling down for a nap irresistible, sleep a few hours. Try to go to bed around 10p-12a and wake up between 3 and 5.
This is most unpleasant. Let's talk about what I can do lifestyle wise and OTC wise to fix this until I can get my ambien RX renewed at the very least.
Also I have strange "sparkly" pains in my joints which could be stress/nerves related (a sort of fibromyalgia?) or it could be because my *ss has gotten fat since coming back to California in december. Unsure. But I have to take naproxen to get rid of them - tylenol does nothing.
Also, a very interesting observation on alcohol: When I am feeling well, I can have a drink or two and think nothing of it. When I'm not, I notice the instant the drink wears off and feel absolutely miserable. So, no social booze for me until I'm feeling 100% myself again.
The brain is complex. :/
-z
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