Posted by floatingbridge on July 4, 2011, at 13:31:27
In reply to Re: Encouragement - Emsam, posted by Lepus on July 4, 2011, at 12:40:43
> I guess I've never been much of a journaler because I usually remember everything. So before major appointments or times when I might have to remember specifics under pressure, I make notes for myself.
Well that's great you can keep it all in your head :-)I had a very bad episode on Friday. I was already not doing well, and was forced to leave the house on an errand (w/o my child, so no worries there.) My fright was so extreme that I kept forgetting the address and place where I had been before. I live in a small town, like one main street, so, you can see how bad that was.
My husband gave me an emergency xanax the next day. I was then able to go to the urgent care and request a stop gap of xanax. In order to calm myself-
-you know, in the examine room where you wait after the waiting room--I forced myself to write a list of stop and start dates for meds. Holy cr*p. It felt like a month had gone by, but only two weeks since my last benzodiazapine (?). It had been Ativan, and my memory of Ativan was that it did not really hit that panic spot. The urgent care doctor gave me a little xanax. It was so bad though, I couldn't look at him. I was stuttering and petrified but much better than the non-stop Friday event. I found myself
covering my eyes while I was talking to him. I know I am just blabbing on here.
But I could barely talk or look at him or any stranger. I knew enough to apologize. The doc was like, that's o.k.
that's part of the anxiety.So, about your other post, ativan would not cut panic for me unless it was an astronomical (relative to me) amount.
Klonopin worked very deeply on anxiety for me as maintenance. But for an acute
episode, well, I would find it better than
nothing for myself.There just has to be ways to shush that panic button. It cannot be healthy to endure. That's something else *not* to panic about :-/
Does your doctor know the frequency
and quality of your episodes?
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