Posted by Christ_empowered on December 17, 2010, at 20:38:37
I take 30mgs/day of Abilify. No mania, significantly decreased agitation and anxiety.
Here's the problem: A few years back, I was a complete pariah. People were cruel, they talked about private information, I was rejected...I was "that guy" in a small town, the one who was treated like crap.
Now, I'm in a new town and I'm doing OK, but I hear voices of people--you guessed it--talking about me. Saying all the old stuff people used to say. Talking about confidential information. Some of these voices I associate with real people who actually did some of these things back in the day.
Should I just get over it? I mean, people go through wars and traumatic experiences w/o needing meds for this sort of thing. I wouldn't even think about adding meds if the voices weren't so distracting. And now, I'm starting to get a little paranoid. Like today, a guy in front of me in line at a store whispered something to his girlfriend--I automatically assumed they were talking about me. I'm kind of on edge, I feel a little keyed up, my social awkwardness is increased, and I just don't feel calm.
But you can't always feel calm. Or happy. Or "well-adjusted." These things are great, but pills won't always do them/produce them for you. I don't want to go above the FDA max for abilify, so 30mgs is my stopping point. Do I need more meds? Benzos are out, btw.
Thanks
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