Posted by Maxime on December 14, 2010, at 20:49:05
In reply to Re: Why do I feel like jumping off a bridge? » Maxime, posted by SLS on December 14, 2010, at 5:02:27
Scott, I really appreciate your taking the time to respond to my post considering what you are going through now.
Actually, I am not doing well at now. This is quote from a post I made below:
"My depression is very bad. I force myself out of bed in the morning and I have my shower. In the shower I sob and sob and sob. Then I get on with my day. I go to work. I go to my car at lunch and sit in it and sob and sob. Wipe my eyes, and go back into work. Leave work, before putting the car into drive I have another crying session. Then the last one I have is when I first get into bed. No one has a clue of how bad I am doing with the exception of my pdoc. I'm still on the Parnate but clearly it is not working very well but there is nothing left for me try. So I stay on the Parnate."
I know that people think that because I can get up and go to work that I am ok. But the truth is that I am not.
I will still post from time to time here, but not as much as before because I don't feel safe here anymore. But my Babble Mail will always be so that people can contact me and so that I can contact them.
Maxie
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
poster:Maxime
thread:970034
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