Posted by SLS on December 14, 2010, at 5:02:27
In reply to Re: Why do I feel like jumping off a bridge?, posted by Maxime on December 13, 2010, at 21:12:39
Dear Maxime,
> Well I did go to jump off the bridge. It's one of the 10 suicide bridges people are most likely to jump off in North America. Imagine that, in my own city! You cannot imagine how upset I was to find out that they had put up an suicide barriers! I just sat there and cried as traffic whized by me.
I wish I could crawl inside your head in order to know the demons that plague you. I can't be sure, but I still suspect that your preoccupation with suicide has at least some psychological underpinnings that would still exist in the absence of your depressive disorder. While your medical treatment has you feeling somewhat better, you might elect to use this time to examine where in your psyche lies the need for escape. Considering your lack of funds for psychotherapy, you might want to use the Internet to look for suggestions on how to attack the psychological aspects of an obsession with suicide. I don't know if the Psycho-Babble Psychology board would be of use, but you might want to start a thread over there.
One thing that deserves a prominent position in evaluating all of this is that there is a neurobiological substrate for suicidality that usually presents with anger, hostility, aggression, or significant anxiety. There may be no psychological component to your focus on suicide at all. I wish I could somehow know wherein your best treatment lies.
If it helps, keep posting. If not, you might want to drop in every now and then just to say hello and let the community know that you are still alive and kicking. You might even want to post an announcement of your current need for taking a sabbatical.
Get well soon.
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
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