Posted by floatingbridge on November 13, 2009, at 22:12:16
In reply to Re: Linkadge - How are you doing?, posted by linkadge on November 12, 2009, at 16:52:44
Linkadge, you can file this under mind your own beeswax, but here I go.
> I don't know what is causing the sadness. I just graduated and got a good job that I enjoy - it is what I've always wanted to do.
I suffered my first major (Major) depression right after graduating graduate school. I'm not saying it's the same. I'm pointing out a major life change--sometimes 'happy' events can stir up 'stuff'.
> I would have a hard time telling my doctor that I am not doing well as he thinks I am. Part of me doesn't want to disappoint him and part of me wants to live the lie that I am doing well.
I so want to be a 'good' patient--that means for me getting better, etc. But you yourself acknowledge the lie. The rub here, that I see, is you don't have the 'key' to why life says, "wow, good!" and you still feel sad. It seems nonsensical, I know, but we are all so mysterious and complex.
More than two cents worth--
I really wish you well, whatever it takes--the right meds, good therapy, or....
wishing you the best Linkadge and a swift remission,
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