Posted by Fivefires on September 29, 2009, at 23:07:22
My Xanax was filled on 9/1, but Ive become so exhausted w/ having to ask pp to p/u this or that for me, I didn't push a friend to p/u that day, so instead was brought to me 9/4.
I've been on Xanax 2mg tid and Xanax-XR 1mg tid for a year or more. I've been on a benzo of one of another for upwards of 20yrs.
I have 1/4 of a 2mg tab and 1 1mg xr tab.
My pdoc wont refill until 10/4!
I am here alone and have to GO WITHOUT IT for SEVEN DAYS!
My head feels like a volcano is boiling inside and it will erupt out of the top, or like I have a real tight winter cap on. Is this just blood rushing from my brain due to stress hormone cortisol or is what's left of my brain being burned up?
Help me if you can guys. I will NOT go to an ER or Urgent Care w/o a friend or family member. I already suffered a (what I call) shutdown in 2005 three wks after a pdoc cold-turkeyed me off Klonopin.
Hardly anybody IRL cares about me, so I might as well just keep my PC on. (I have dial up! No one will be able to reach me by phone!) I have a cell phone though, thanks to one daughter.
What is happening to my head?
I know I should watch for fever.
What other symptoms should I watch for?
I'm already having dropping BP and labored breathing which made me reach for a 2mg Xanax.
I told my pdoc and my PCP my state of health this morning.
I called the pharmacy to see if there is a med for low blood pressure and he said midodrine. When I'd called my PCP's office this morn', I had included and spelled this in my message. Well, ... the PCP called in Midrin.(?)
I can't walk very well, slow and weak; have to hold onto things.
Alone in my state except for three very busy children w/ their work and lives.
I cannot walk to mailbox but son doesn't understand/realize this state I'm in, and got angry and yelled at me for asking him to go get it ... :----((((
Last two loved ones went to hosp, contracted MRSA and died. When I go into one of the hospital ER's here and they see my behavioral health diagnosis, there is a total shift of thinking into just this area of health. I would rather .. well I know you know. I remember just one time out of 10+ when I was treated with kindness and appropriately. I have seen and, for nearly 30yrs, transcribed, horrors which happen to pp like us when routed directly to the mental health ward.
I've no appetite and food tastes bad. Can't sleep. Had been begging for a return call from pdoc since beginning of Sept re: not sleeping.
No adult fam' if origin members will come. They know.
You're all I have.
5f
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