Posted by calamityjane on August 23, 2007, at 21:14:55
I just logged in to find your message about your treatments for depression are not helping. The last line of your message just said that you couldnt leave your wife and kids, no matter how miserable you are. I started crying when I read that, because my dad did not choose to hold on for me. I was 5 when he killed himself, and today I am 27 years old and it has remained a fresh wound in my life and I must face life without him every single day. I cannot describe the pain of knowing that even my very own father abandoned ame. I am completely destroyed by his leaving. Nothing is normal, everything is just "not quite right". I am desperate for him to hug me - but desperation is all I will ever feel - not his arms around me.
Please please please - you will get through this - I know if you just stick it out and decide that you are going to, then you will be able to. Please think of me when you get down, and believe me when I tell you that the pain my dad felt did not disappear when he chose to kill himself - it was just passed on to his family. Somehow you will find a way to make this terrible depression get away from you - If I give you my email address would you write me? I want to know more of what you are feeling - my dad had ECT as well, along with many other treatments that some crazy doc mixed all together and at the same time...
poster:calamityjane
thread:778195
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