Posted by jealibeanz on May 4, 2007, at 4:33:37
In reply to Doctors = The-Anti Xanax, posted by jealibeanz on May 4, 2007, at 4:29:42
This all pretty much solidifies my suspicions that my doctor was purposely trying to switch me off of Xanax because of fear of addiction and he didn't want me "hooked", not for my own benefit of just taking a pill once a day. He must think he's really in the clear regarding me and Xanax. I certainly did not transition willingly or happily, but it's been done for 2 months now.
Yup, I no longer take 4 tablets a day... and I no longer get any anxiety relief because I'm on Xanax XR. I could probably taper down fairly easily and willingly because there's nothing for me to miss or argue about with XR (He already sneakily moved me from 4mg/day to 3 mg/day since that's the largest XR tablet made. Why don't I just try it?!). I don't like it!
I am the kind of person who would be proud of myself for having the strength and determination to accomplish something, even if it were uncomfortable and the immediate result was not fun. I tend to do things which I know will be good for me in the long run. My innate behavior is driven toward delayed gratification and I pride myseslf on my self-control.
However, I don't sit around and think, "It would be a great accomplishment if I could get myself off Xanax or Xanax XR."
I don't think it would be. I wouldn't be proud of myself. Even if in years to come I find a different drug that relieves my anxiety, I won't look back and be proud of getting off Xanax.
Why?! Because I see no point! It's like doing something just for the sake of doing something. I've actually been proud of myself for getting my doctor to prescribe Xanax for the past year at appropriate levels. It's the only thing that's ever helped and I was proud of myself for allowing myself to get what I needed.
This all really bothers me.
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