Posted by deniseuk190466 on January 3, 2007, at 11:56:03
At least that's the verdict of this professor I saw at Willow View, the thing is I don't know why I'm unhappy and I have no reason to be.
I went to Willow View day care centre because my psychiatrist was refusing to treat me any more as an outpatient and the mirtazapine wasn't working and I was hoping that this Professor might have some ideas on medications but that was not the case at all.
The first time I saw him, which, was disconcerting because there were about four of them there doing the review, he kept drumming his fingers on his know (not sure why) but it was unnerving and then accused me of wanting to be in control of everything. I said that wasn't true, I'm not a control freak but I like to have some input into what medication I try. In any event he refused to prescribe anything new other than Mirtazapine inspite of my insistence that it wasn't working. He just told me he didn't think any medication would work even though I had told him that it had worked in the past. These were his comments to me during our meetings.
That I wanted to be in control.
That I was addicted to the mental health services and why didn't I just go away and live my life.
That what I am after doesn't exist. Even though I know it does because I've experienced it. That feeling of being content and just enjoying life without constantly feeling that something is wrong.
That medicine won't work for me and that many cancer patients after failed drug trials just stop medication therapy altogether and go away and just try to enjoy the remainder of their years.
Because I'd tried to make the best of the Willow View situation and contribute to the therapy sessions and share my experiences with other mental health patients, he even made that into something negative and said
he found it worrying how readily I'd embraced being with "mental health patients"
His final conclusion was that I am not "depressed" and that I am just a very unhappy, troubled person and that there are lots of unhappy people out there so I should just go away and get on with it :-(
The thing is I have absolutely no reason to be unhappy and I don't think I am particularly negative about life or ever was.
Fortunately I did have Zyprexa stashed up to help me now and again but when I told him that it did help he even made me feel bad about that saying "so would cocaine". I've never taken cocaine nor would I but he made me feel like a pill popping junky.
Just wanted to get the above off my chest.
Denise
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