Posted by 4WD on August 22, 2005, at 20:58:08
In reply to Why do i feel like i have failed if i start meds ?, posted by wildcard on August 22, 2005, at 19:44:35
> >I really hope it has just been the bad week and today topped it off but deep down i am scared that i will have to go back on meds. after quitting effexor xr for approx. 40 days now. I am angry w/ everything but mostly w/ myself!! I have been doing so well and i could slowly see *it* creeping up on me for about a week and 1/2 now and today i feel just plain awful. I know i will feel like such a failure if i go back on meds., although i would NEVER look at someone else that way!! Maybe it's the M monster that will be visiting me in a few days but i'm so worried that will not be whats wrong. *SIGH* I really hope no meds. are needed BUT if so, i do not want 225mg of effexor xr again... I have read about so many combos so any advice?? If i feel like this tomorrow i am calling my doc.. My dx is severe depressive d/o, PTSD and severe social and gen. anxiety d/o.
I know how you feel. I've tried to get off meds at least six times in the past three years and always gone back, always feeling like I somehow just didn't try hard enough or hadn't given it enough time or something happened that made it necessary to go back on now and try to get off again later.
Why did you want to get off meds? Was it that the Effexor made you feel bad? Have you tried other meds? Sometimes I just feel disgusted with the whole merry-go-round and think I don't even know who I am anymore -what's meds and what's me.
It's hard to suggest drugs without knowing your symptoms and what you've tried in the past. There are so many people on the board who are so much more knowledgable in that than I am anyway. But I can offer you my sympathy and tell you that there is no shame in needing to be on meds.
Marsha
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