Posted by D minor on April 28, 2005, at 1:09:16
In reply to Re: such calmness........, posted by tom_traubert on April 27, 2005, at 22:35:25
Dear Woolav,
I hope that by now you are safe in the hosptial or with your husband and pdoc. If you happen to be online there is something I want you to know.I wasn't exaggerating when I said I've been exactly where you are. About two years ago, before I was diagnosed, I had what was probably a hypomanic episode. I felt like flirting with everything that had two legs. It lead to a relationship and a near-affair with a co-worker. Then came the depression. I was overcome with guilt. I begain cutting, both to
"punish" myself, and to releave the pain I felt inside.To make a long story short, I ended up in the hospital. Which was, I am sure, the best place for me at the time. I'm thinking that is where you need to be now. It was a process that took time, but they got me diagnosed and my meds sorted out. It really helped. My anguish was eased. My husband forgave me, and I forgave myself. Things got better.
So I guess what I'm trying to let you know is that things will get better. You may feel pretty hopless right now, but there are so many things that can be done to ease the pain you are going through. You can't change the past, but you set in your heart what you will do with your future.
So, if you haven't yet, pick up the phone and call for help. Please! If not for yourself, then for the one's you love.
Let us know when you can how you are doing. But your health is the priority right now.
I'll be praying for you,
dm
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