Posted by Camille Dumont on March 28, 2004, at 15:09:26
In reply to Re: why do I feel an old wise man when I take ADs ? » Camille Dumont, posted by francesco on March 28, 2004, at 7:02:15
You read my post right. I don't think I regret them much ... or perhaps its because the only emotions I remember from before I took the meds were very very ugly.
Could be the "supposed" schizoid pd speaking ... although I'm more inclined to say that for me its just a personality thing ... not a disorder. I mean its not like I'm not functioning and what not. I have this intense fear of being dependent, of being trapped, at the mercy of others so the less I feel, the less it seems to me that they can have a hold onto me.
I have serious doubts about life in general ... the point of it and what not ... it seems to me that its just so pointless and so are emotions because in the end, do they really change anything? I guess you could say that the meds have turned me into a more efficient automaton ... sort of. I get broken less often ... but I don't feel like someone ... I still feel that I only exist out of routine and others' expectation.
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