Posted by PsychoSage on March 27, 2004, at 13:38:15
In reply to Re: provigil addiction » eugenia, posted by francesco on March 27, 2004, at 12:52:37
> > I'll try to make this succinct. Years ago went through Adderral hell, as in I wanted more and more and more until I ended up in the ER vomiting. Stopped and never wanted to take it again--after getting over euphoric recall, though vomiting is a lovely behavioral modification tool. Now, to combat some day time sleepiness and ADD which may be related to multiple sclerosis I was prescribed Provigil. I love it, but I am terrified that it is addictive. I just think about it too much. I know it is not physiologically addictive, but neither is cocaine. It's the crash I fear having for many years suffered from depression. I would love to know others experiences with this drug and its abuse potential.
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> I don't know how to help you with Provigil, I've never tried and I'd like to do it, but I have a question for you if you don't mind. How did you get the idea of having multiple sceloris ? I'm asking because I have daytime sleepiness and ADD and I must admit I thought to have something physical. Is it just an idea of your or you got a neurological examination ?
>you love the idea of the drug more than the total experience and truth about stimulants. I know stimulant addiction.
I am on provigil too, and i am being monitored carefully while on it. It's the only stim option I have, and I don't think I cleaned up to go nuts over a half-baked stimulant.
The obsession for many things is like a frenetic, manic energy that would exist without the drug and probably finds other targets.
Don't think of the drug as a pleasure source or your crutch. If you can emotionally and psychologically say and think honestly that you can live without provigil then that is a good sign.
There are other aberrant drug behaviors for script abusers.
Search aberrant drug behaviors online.
DO you horde? Do you take more than you are directed? DO you script shop? Do you borrow other's drugs?
Unfortunately, your bubble will burst one day about provigil.
It can be reinforcingand addictive. Don't trick yourself because it's a lower scheduled controlled drug.
The more this is a secret ordeal, the more anxiety and inner turmoil it will cause you.
My therapist likened it to a drudge work drug.
Psychosis and rage are consequences of abusing this or being on a dose that is too high. You can have those problems if you are on the manic/psychotic end of things too. My pdoc told me this.
Good luck, and look further into getting assistance for your issues from professional help and otherwise if appropriate.
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