Posted by helenag on November 7, 2003, at 19:21:49
I went to see my pdoc yesterday. We have quite a history together, as I have been in the hospital five times since April. Been his patient for over three years.
What always amazes me is that every visit results in some variation of medicinal cure. A fine tuning of medication or an addition of another medication.I am handcuffed right now with terrible anxiety. Infact, my son asked me the other night if I have ADHD because of my inability to sit still. My legs are always jumping up and down, and if I am standing, its my fingers or hands that move. Because of my substance abuse history, I cannot take benzos. My pdoc used to give me buspar, but buspar never did anything for me. This time, he gave me some samples of seroquel to take. I haven't taken any yet. When I came home, my husband asked me why didn't I try some good hard exercise first. (Because I can't focus enough to exercise. By the time I come home from my stressful job I am ready to shut down; I don't want any more demands on me.)
The thing is: after I am home for a couple hours, the stress does lessen and I do feel better. I will avoid taking the seroquel for as long as I can. He also upped my topamex dose to help the urges to drink---(Does anyone else out there take topamax not only for mood disorders as I do, but also for alcohol problems, as I do as well??)
Sometimes I wonder if a few more minutes of a pdoc's time (and mine does give me time, he is a good and kind man, and I am greedy for more of his time) would help more than a pill. Alas, maybe I am another Bob Riley??? It's probably more like I am getting tired of taking pills, especially ones with potential serious side effects. By the way, I was once on a low dose of respiradol--it gave me breast milk. I never noticed that it had any great effect good or bad.
Thanks for listening. Helen.
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