Posted by Mr. Scott on November 7, 2003, at 17:58:59
Well...
I am a recovering alcoholic and addict and I'm very depressed and have been for years on some level. At other times my behavior is probably hypomanic, always ending in drug use or erratic impulsive beavior. I currently take 37.5 mg of effexor, 7.5mg of Tranxene, 400mg of Neurontin and 4mg of Gabitril. The diagnosis is Bipolar 2, but I may also have a seasonal component. I'm recently out of a relationship, and I'm severely depressed right now. It seems now that for the third time in my life I have lost someone whom I've loved or thought I loved, or loved for maybe even the wrong reasons because of my depression which eventually I cannot conceal and it wears people down. In recent years every time I bump up the Effexor or whatever the Antidepressant is at the time I get very quick relief of my depression, but it is short lived and falls by the wayside to side effects mostly involving agitation and anxiety with a return to depressive symptomology as well. If anyone out there picks this up and has advice for me particularly if your symptoms resemble mine and you have found help please let me know. As it is, my doctor is out of town and I'm not sure he really gets it anyways. In any event I cannot help but envision the worst and seemingly inevitable solution right now. I know I should get off the pity pot, but I just can't function like a human being anymore. I'm so sad and feel so hopeless and that I've lost so much. I want to cry out, but I cannot.
Mr. Scott
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