Posted by Sumone23is6 on November 7, 2003, at 0:53:13
I am sad and upset not for any apparent reason. Or, for many reasons...I do not know. I am emotionless yet sad and angry most of the time. To be exact, I've been this way for 12 years. I went to a psychiatrist once and he was no help. Eight years ago he told me to remember four words (as a test for dwelling on things) at the end of the hour he asked me to recall them.....pencil, rose, Chicago, twenty-one. I still remember. Why? I do not want to remember things so odd. During the last few years, I have begun to notice physical effects from my feelings. I now cannot go anywhere without a cup of liquid in my hand because sometimes (manytimes) I begin to choke and the liquid helps it go away. This problem has advanced some more in the last year. Now, my heart rate increases, I cough then choke then vomit. I have tried to help myself climb out of this deep hole, but, I seem to plunge back in just as I believe everything will be ok. I am on meds for depression and panic attacks however, I still feel the same.... sad and angry. I cannot continue feeling this way forever. My body cannot handle this pain. Help.
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