Posted by Ame Sans Vie on February 2, 2003, at 21:14:59
Okay, well today I was really stoned (lol, sorry, but it's true, and I believe that's how I came to this epiphany) and I began to think about how my 'social anxiety' isn't quite so bad as I think it is... I have great social skills, I interact just fine with people, though I am admittedly somewhat timid. But by no means would I say *that* is the thing that is holding my life back.
My problem, I began to think, is lack of motivation (lol, yeah, I know, "stop smoking the weed, dumbass"... I only smoke once or twice a month).Motivation to get my license. Motivation to get a job. Motivation to go to school. Motivation to move into my own place.
This is starting to bring my thinking more back to the direction of ADHD, as I know was attention-deficit/hyperactive as a child... I just think I outgrew quite a bit of the hyperactivity. All I think I need to say is that I was such a terror at home as a kid that my dad attempted suicide several times with Valium and liquor.
I'm sure the obvious response to this would be to try some ADHD drugs. I've tried Ritalin... just made me kind of uncomfortable and nauseus. 30mg Adderall XR didn't really do anything. Desoxyn was kind of nice. I'm kind of skeptical of Strattera, though I wouldn't mind giving Cylert a shot.
Just FWIW, I've been on Provigil for quite a while... it never helped these symptoms.
TIA!
--Michael
poster:Ame Sans Vie
thread:139016
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