Posted by Krazy Kat on March 25, 2002, at 20:21:18
In reply to Re: Hate drug? » OldSchool, posted by Ritch on March 25, 2002, at 19:43:59
Old School:
My guess is most of us on this board consider ourselves "above" the normal chum - how else are we to handle our vast differences? Of course, major depression likes to toy with our low self-esteem (or mine at least), so it's rarely for a long period that i feel particularly bright.
i AM lazy. this comes from genetics, nuture, and this illness. i could care less (anymore - i was highly competitive when younger) if i succeed at something the world has decided is worthy. i have become quite a taoist in my philosophy (note, it's My philosophy, not meant to be any one else's).
i am not fat, but that is purely due to a high metabolism which is slowly slowing down b/c of these darn meds.
Mitch mentions "ruminating" and that is a very telling word. i have Lots of trouble with ruminating thoughts. they are usually quite "evil" and disturbing. the mood stabilizers i have tried have all helped with that - depakote the best.
it seems to me from your post that these "raging feelings" have a mind of their own. you're losing your objectivity due to their persistence.
i hate to answer all mental problems with meds, but it sounds like you might benefit from a drug that can hush these puppies up, something that helps with thought patterns.
on a non-med note, there are many horrific things in this world. there are also many beautiful things. my parents choose to see our lives as a suffering mass, a time to worship and witness for God, and Christ. Our reward is supposed to be in heaven, and consequently they tend to see mostly the murders, and the stupidity, and the pain.
you can choose to focus on the enlightening aspects instead - education, learning for learning's sake, appreciation of the sciences, appreciation of the arts. animals are Way up on my list because they are so freeing. but you already know this. else you wouldn't have posted an inquiry about a way to find it.
- KK
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