Posted by chloe on September 19, 2001, at 17:59:14
In reply to Re: Chloe, how are things going? » chloe, posted by Mitch on September 19, 2001, at 9:28:49
Mitch,
I don't remember how awful I felt when I stopped my last meds, but since stopping Zyprexa I have been on a terrible rollercoaster. I think I am going to be fine, then I am suicidal again. I think I am now feeling so low because I don't really think i have any decent options left...and I can't sleep. I toss and turn and just get up around 5am. No day should last so long, esp. when I feel at the end of my rope.Without AD augmentation, I don't have the energy to increase my support system. My world is getting so small...I had to stop my saturday job and I am just so isolated.
But I don't have much hope for Li (I have vivid memories of the tremor, and not just in my hands, restlessness and hypoglycemic attacks, ugh), and I am afraid to fool around with my thyroid.
Do you have any opinion about the smallest dose (125mgs)of Depakote? I really need to sleep SOUNDLY and not be so labile (and suicidal). If I remember right, Dep would give me these really strange dreams...(and hair loss!) Aren't you taking Dep? Do you have any insight on this med for sleep, cycling, ruminating, etc?Ho hum. Somehow I have to get out the door for a walk. Hopefully tonight I can resist the urge to cry most of the way. Thank heavens it get dark early now so no one has to witness that!
thanks for any thoughts Mitch and others!
Chloe
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