Posted by Mr.Scott on August 13, 2001, at 17:45:13
In reply to Re: The Truth » Mr. Scott, posted by shelliR on August 13, 2001, at 17:09:15
Don't you see all those people out there who are comfortable in their own skin. They look happy to be at work, excited about the future, and have few regrets about the past. They seek out activities that they get enjoyment from. They don't need to slug down a couple of drinks to be sociable and happy amongst others. Now I know they too have real life skeleton's in their closets and all kinds of issues I can't see. But I know for a fact that at least 85% of them are not preocupied by sad and fearful feelings.
I don't remember what it is like to look forward to something. I would rather hide and go to sleep than face the world each day. That just isn't right. If I don't get feeling better, when I die my life will have amounted to what people around my death bed can tell me it amounted to, because I will not have been able to feel it and know it. My experience for many years now has been a grey one. I just push myself through the motions because I'm supposed to. Because I have to pay the bills. I feel likea lazy fool on one hand but hope on the other that maybe, just maybe something will change. I have NO desire to do anything anymore except watch TV. Now in truth some days aren't so bad, but some days are also much worse.
Now bear in mind, besides the annoymous posters on this board there is but one person outside of my shrink who would ever hear me mutter these things. The rest of the world either thinks I'm okay, or just doesn't care. This is a place for me to complain and hopefully get some feedback.Do you think Amphetamine and Buprenorphine are worth investigating for this?
poster:Mr.Scott
thread:74847
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20010809/msgs/74964.html